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I’m not okay

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I am really struggling. I am feeling down and depressed a lot. Probably because I am working hard in therapy on overcoming the abuse I went through. It’s been really hard. Now in therapy I am talking about the lies I have believe about myself. Honestly I am not doing good mentally. I still going to school everyday and doing my homework. But I still feel very down and depressed a lot. I know I probably feel depressed because my physical pain from fibromyalgia has been really bad. So I am not okay.

Physically:

I am in a lot of pain everyday. I finally got my new tens unit which has been helping. My doctor increased my pain medicine that has helped but I am still in a lot of pain. I still believe that I have fibromyalgia because five doctors have told me I do. No matter what illness I have I am still in constant chronic pain everyday.

I am really not okay. I know it’s okay not to be okay❤️

I am sorry if this upload was depressing but honestly it how I feel❤️

Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers❤️

I love you all and will update again next week❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Amazing news❤️💜💖

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well! I have some very good news to share with all of you:

I saw my doctor for my fibromyalgia last week and he increased my pain medicine. But my doctor believes I don’t have fibromyalgia. He believe my chronic pain is due to my sleep apnea. He told me of a mouth guard I can get that will help. He believes that with my mouth guard and using my sleep apnea machine, I can get better! He said it will take a few months but I can get better and maybe even be pain free!!!😊😊💛💛❤️❤️

I am very excited about that news! I can get better!😊❤️💜💖

Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I have been doing okay. In therapy I am working hard on overcoming the abuse I went through. So I have been struggling with overcoming my past. But for the most part, I am really good. My mood has gotten a lot better😊❤️💜💖 I feel happy!❤️💛💖💜

Physically:

I am still in a lot of pain. My tens unit broke and I use it a lot. So that’s been hard because my pain is better with my tens unit. I get a new tens unit on Tuesday so that is good. I have been resting on the heating pad a lot because I have been in a lot of pain. But I am making it. I am hanging in there❤️

Overall I am doing very well and very excited about what the future holds! I am doing really good in college and have made some friends. In the fall I might be doing an internship with my favorite teacher. It’s an internship for English majors (I am an English major). So hopefully I will get the internship!❤️💛💜💖

I am doing really good❤️😊💜💖

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-xoxo Caty❤️❤️

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Focusing on good❤️

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well. Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

This week was tough because in therapy I have been finally talking about the abuse I went through. So this week has been really hard I haven’t been coping very well. I have been really sad and down. But this weekend has been amazing!❤️ I told myself that I am tired of focusing on my pain and problems so this weekend has been amazing because I have been focusing on all my blessings💛 it has really worked I am doing really good🧡

Physically:

This week has been really rough on my fibromyalgia. I have been in a lot of pain this week. But yesterday was a much better day and I really enjoyed. I got a lot of laundry done so that was really good. My pain is better today❤️💜💖💛💙

Focusing on the good things in my life has really been so helpful. I realized how happy I am if I focus on the good and not my problems and pain❤️💜💖🧡💛

I am doing great and I am going to enjoy it❤️

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Thank you so much for reading! I will see you guys again next week! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Doing much better❤️

Hey everyone and welcome back! I hope you are doing well and here is an update from me:

Mentally:

I am feeling much better!💛💛 I don’t feel depressed! Yay! Sometimes I get down due to my physical pain but my depression and anxiety is SOO much better!❤️😊💜💖 I have been working in therapy about the abuse I went through. So that has been tough but honestly I am doing so good❤️

Physically:

I am still in a lot of pain. But I am making it❤️ I have been having to wear my tents unit a lot but it really helps. Even though I am still in pain I am trying not to focus on it. I am doing better and I am going to focus on that❤️

I realized that I have been spending all my time focusing on my pain and depression but no more! I will only focus on the positives in my life and focus on how good I am doing💜💖💛❤️

I am doing good and I am going to enjoy it!❤️

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-xoxo Caty❤️

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I’m not okay

Hey everyone❤️ happy Sunday! I hope you are doing well. Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I am not doing so good mentally. I started therapy Thursday and I wrote a lot about my anger about having fibromyalgia. I have been feeling lots of feelings about how I feel towards my diagnosis of fibro. I have just been feeling really depressed and down. But I have been writing a lot about my feelings so that is good. This week I have just felt really down so it’s been hard. But today I feel a little bit better so I am going to enjoy feeling better today❤️ I know I am still depressed but I am making it. It’s been really rough and but I am hanging in there💜

Physically:

I have been in SOO much pain from fibromyalgia. It’s been exhausting and frustrating how much pain I have been in. I have been wearing my tens unit pretty much all day everyday. My pain has been very bad and when my pain is bad it makes me feel much more depressed. It’s been bad but I am making it. Everyday I get up and do things despite feeling depressed and in pain❤️

I wrote a poem about how I have been feeling:

How am I supposed to be okay

How am I supposed to be okay,

With tears running down my face.

How am I supposed to be okay,

When my back feels like it’s on fire.

How am I supposed to be okay,

With the fact that I am in constant chronic pain,

From fibromyalgia.

How am I supposed to,

Praise God,

And be thankful,

That I am still in unbearable pain.

How am I supposed to be okay,

When I can’t sleep at night.

How am I supposed to be okay,

When I have to talk about the abuse I went through.

How my ex boyfriend:

Beat me,

Slapped me,

Screamed at me,

And touched me.

How am I supposed to be okay with that?

How am I supposed to make peace with the abuse.

How am I supposed to be okay,

 When his new girlfriend goes to my school,

And is in my writing group.

How is that okay?

How am I supposed to be okay,

When I still feel depressed.

How am I supposed to be okay with,

 The fact that I will never be pain free,

From fibromyalgia.

How I am supposed to be okay,

That mental illnesses,

And chronic pain,

Destroyed my life.

How is it okay for a young girl to have:

Bipolar,

Anxiety,

Social anxiety,

Depression, 

And fibromyalgia.

How can I praise God,

When all I can think about is what He took from me.

He took my mental state,

At the young age of thirteen.

He took my health by being diagnosed with fibromyalgia,

At nineteen.

Now I am twenty-one,

And still not fucking okay.

I’m not okay.

I don’t know if I ever will be.

So tell me God:

How am I supposed to be okay,

With everything!?!?

How am I supposed to be okay.

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I am not okay right now. But I am just going to keep going, no matter what❤️

You keep going to babe❤️

Thank you for reading!❤️ I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Making process❤️

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing good, here is an update on me:

Physically: I have been having lots of stomach issues but thankfully my stomach issues are better. I had a colonoscopy this week that came back normal so that is really good! My pain from fibromyalgia has been really bad. Everyday I hurt really bad from fibromyalgia. I have been having to wear my tens unit basically all the time. So I am still struggling with fibromyalgia but I am making it. I still go to school everyday and do my homework. Currently I have all B’s in my classes so I am happy about that❤️

Mentally:

I am doing much better! My depression and anxiety has gotten better. Now I just get down and depressed at night. So that’s huge and I am really happy about that!❤️ I started seeing my new therapist this week and I feel really hopeful that I am going to continue to do good mentally❤️

All and all I am making process! I am hanging in there and doing much better mentally so I am proud and happy about that❤️ I still struggling with fibromyalgia but I am making it❤️

I am taking it one day at a time❤️

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you have an amazing week and I will update you guys again next week! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Happy world mental health day!❤️

Happy world mental health day everyone!❤️ #worldmaternalmentalhealthday

When I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, social anxiety, and bipolar, I thought my life was over. Turns out my life had just began. Even though living with any mental illness is hell. I have had to fight like hell since I was diagnosed nine years ago. I am proud to say that even through all the depression, suicidal thoughts, mental hospital stays, and ECT treatments, I am glad that I am here today❤️ even though currently I am depressed, I am still glad I am here💖

If you are struggling with any mental illness, my advise to you: get help and keep going. Get help by seeing a therapist, psychiatrist, and talking to the people you love and trust. Keep going even when you want to end it all. I have wanted to end it all so many times but I am SOO glad I didn’t. It will get better. Then years later you will look back and be proud you stayed. So keep going. Keep fighting. I am proud of you. I love you❤️💜💜💖 #depressionhelp #bipolarawareness #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthtips #anxietyrelief #keepgoing #nevergiveup

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-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖