Big news guys😱

Hello there beautiful😍😘

I am SOO sorry I haven’t been posting lately, life has been kinda crazy. I have been doing lots of plays: I was in Alice in Wonderland, I interned during The Juggle Book, school always keeps me busy, so I am not doing any big activities this summer so I will be posting much more often.

Updates on my mood:

Lately I have been really up and down. Some days really suck and I just feel down for no reason. Other days I am okay. But most days my moods are all over the place, I never know what mood I am going to be in. But today I am okay. Last night I cried myself to sleep and I had no idea why I was even crying but I made it. I am just keep going no matter what. That’s what really counts to me💜 so I have been seen kinda down but I have been doing a lot. I have been getting up everyday, doing my school work, chores, and just not feeding in my depression. So I count that as a success👍🏻💞

BIG NEWS:

So on Saturday I am turning 18😱😱😱😱 I have mixed emotions about it. I am excited about it because I know this birthday is going to be SOOO much better than my 16th birthday. I am going to the movies with my best friend then she is spending the night so I am very excited about that. And of course I can’t wait to get my presents lol!😂 And honestly I am so proud of myself for living this long. When I was 13 all I could think about was death and I never planned on living this long. But I have made it through a lot and have overcome so many things. So I am so proud of myself for living to be able to turn 18💕💜 But then I am scared about turning 18, becoming an adult is scary. College and graduating is right around the corner. I don’t know what I am going to major in, I am unsure of a lot of things. But I have decided this birthday is going to be my best birthday yet💜 Despite how turning 18 is scary it’s gonna be good. I am excited😱

So that’s all what is going on in my world💕 I hope you all have a wonderful day! I love you so much!❤️

-Renae💞