Big things are happening😱

Hello beautiful people! I know it’s been FOREVER since I have posted on here.

Big things that are happening:

I am done with high school! YAY!!! I am graduating in May and I am so excited. My high school years were the worst (until I became homeschooled then it was amazing.) I have prom this Friday and I have a big, fluffy, princess dress. I signed up for college this week, I am starting in the fall. I have been applying places to find a job. I just finished with my play Godspell. I am turning 19 next month. Wow. Man, I have been busy. Big things are coming up. I am excited, scared, nervous, all at the same time for graduating and starting college. 

My mood:

I have been very up and down. I have been really depressed. Even though things are going great for me, I still feel depressed. Depression sucks. No matter how hard I try I am still depressed. It’s frustrating but I am making it.

Something to be proud of:

When I was 13, I dreamed of killing myself and next months I will be 19. Wow. From when I was 13-16: I had an abusive boyfriend, went into mental hospitals 4 times, scratched my skin till it would bleed, tried to kill myself, was manic, suicidal, and depressed. Now I am turning 19, going to college, and graudating high school. I never thought I would live this long. I have come a long way. That’s something to be proud of.

My encouragement for you:

I am living proof that it does get better!

Never give up my darling.

You can do this.

I believe in you.

I love you.

Until next time!

-xoxo Renae💜