During the day, I am normally a little down but not to bad. Yesterday I was busy the morning and afternoon by cleaning but at night time, I got really down. Today I am going to my biology lab class and therapy. But tonight, I may get really down.
At night time is the worst. It’s when the suicidal thoughts hit. I just want to end my pain. I feel so depressed. I feel empty and numb. I want to do anything to help my pain. I have had thoughts of cutting myself. (I have never cut myself, YAY!) Night time is the worst but I just have to keep going through the night. I know night time is the worst so at night I need to use my coping skills. I love reading, writing, and crocheting. I just have to be aware that night time is rough but I have to keep going despite how much I want to give up.
I am fighting babe. I am going to get better. I am going to keep going, no matter what!
You keep going to babe.
I love you!