It’s my birthday🎉💕

Wow.

Today is my 19th birthday!

I can’t believe I have made it this far!

When I was 13 I started to plan my death, I promised myself I would kill myself that year. I never could. I was to scared to kill myself but now I know it was God telling me not to. When I was 13-16 I was in and out of mental hospitals, I was suicidal, depressed, self harming, being abused by my boyfriend, and couldn’t find the right medicine. Somehow through those years; I kept going. Once I became homeschooled  at 16, I finally started to get better. I started feeling better and become stable at ages 17-18. Then in the past 6 months I have gotten really depressed. But I am going to get better. “This to shall pass.” I am excited to be 19. I can’t wait to see what this year holds. Despite being suicidal and depressed lately, I finally have some hope that I can get better. I am going to hold on to that hope and keep going despite how I feel.

I am proud of myself for making it this far. I know it’s going to be hard, but I am ready to live again. It’s time to fight for recovery. I have some hope, that I am going to hold on to and never let go.  I can’t wait to see what 19 brings me💕💜

I hope you all have an amazing day.

I love you!

-xoxo Renae❤️