I am holding on🌟

Hey guys so things have been kinda crazy. My moods have been up and down. Somedays I feel better but at night is when the sadness hits. Other days I wake up feeling sad and feel even worse at night. I am having a hard time sleeping. My mind just races at night so I can’t sleep. I am on SOO much sleep medicines but I can’t sleep. I don’t do well when I don’t get enough sleep. But I went off on one of my medicines which I think has caused me not to sleep. I went off that and I actually slept good last night. My sadness has been bad. In the mornings I have a hard time getting out of bed. I just feel so depressed. But I do get out of bed. I do things throughout the day, I keep myself pretty busy. But I always end up feeling depressed. I jusy generally feel exhausted and depressed. I have had some suicidal thoughts but not a lot. (Yay!) I am just hanging in there. I am fighting it. I am going to keep going. I know I am going to get better it’s just taking forever for me to be stable again. I have bipolar so my moods change all the time, I just wish I could get out of this depression already. But I am making it. I am holding on💕

You keep holding on to babe.

I love you!

I believe in you!

Thank you for listening.

I love you💜

-xoxo Renae❤️