I hope you are doing good. I hope you have had a good weekend. Here’s an update on me and I am sharing with you a poem I wrote:
I’m very depressed and anxious. I have a lot of mood swings. Sometimes I am okay but then at night I get very depressed. I am messaging my doctor so hopefully he can help me but I know it’s just chemical depression which has to be treated by medicine. I am not okay.
My fibromyalgia pain is killing me since I go to school every day. On the weekends I just feel so burned out and in pain. I am also having some stomach issues and I am having a colonoscopy in a few weeks. So yeah not doing that good.
So here’s my poem:
Stop telling me to be fine
I should be fine.
I should be happy.
I should not hurt.
I should not have fibromyalgia.
I should not be in pain every minute of everyday.
I’m not fine.
I’m not happy.
I have fibromyalgia.
I am in pain all day everyday.
I can’t stop being depressed,
Because believe me,
I can’t escape this sadness.
It’s a dark cloud over my head.
Sometimes I may be okay.
But at other times,
The cloud rains and thunderstorms.
Everywhere I go,
The dark cloud follows me.
Every night, the cloud rains and rains.
I can’t get the cloud to stop raining.
I can’t seem to stop being depressed.
I try to be fine.
I try to smile.
I try to look alright.
But that’s a lie.
I can’t always hide,
What’s on the inside.
On the inside,
I’m not okay.
I’m not alright.
Because no matter how hard I try,
I can’t stop feeling depressed.
Doesn’t matter how hard I try,
I’m always depressed at night.
It’s never ending.
So I’m not okay.
I’m not alright.
Stop telling me to be fine.
Thank you so much for reading! I am sorry if this post was really depressing I am just really struggling❤️
I love you all and I will post again next week!❤️
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Best wishes your way, hope you’re feeling better soon
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