I’m depressed (again) I am having suicidal thoughts (again) I am just a mess

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well. Here is an update one me:

Mentally:

I am depressed (again). I am having suicidal thoughts (again). I am having crazy up and down mood swings (again). Honestly, I want to give up. I feel so low, sad, down, depressed, suicidal, numb, empty, worthless, useless, and hopeless. I messaged my psychiatrist and I am trying a new mood stabilizer. But honestly there is not much my psychiatrist can do, I am already on so many other medicines. I think just with being in so much physical pain for three years I have become chemical depressed. I PROMISE I will NOT hurt myself. I PROMISE I am safe. Just keep me in your thoughts and/or prayers.

Physically:

Still doing horrible. I hurt so bad all the time. I am sick and tired of always being sick and tired. I am sick and tired of hurting all the damn time. It’s so frustrating and it hurts so bad. But I am seeing a new chiropractor so maybe that will help. Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore.

I am sorry if this post has been super depressing. This is my recovery blog and I am being honest about how I am doing. Living with fibromyalgia, bipolar, depression, anxiety, and social anxiety isn’t pretty. It’s messy, stressful, and frustrating. This is me being totally honest with you all. I am sorry if I have been annoying by talking about the same things every time. This is just my life and how I feel.

Thank you for listening. It always makes me happy knowing I have people who care to know how I am doing❤️💖💜

I love you all! Have an amazing week❤️💖💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜