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Hoping this nerve block works❤️

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! I hope you have had an amazing week. Here is an update on me:

Big news: tomorrow I have my first nerve block. I am excited, scared, nervous, but mostly just hoping it works💖

Mentally:

Even though my physical pain has been unbearable but mood has been really good. I don’t feel depressed which is amazing and really helps. It’s nice to say I feel good mentally🧡

Physically:

Awful. Horrible. Unbearable. I have been without my tens unit because my last one broke (UGH) so I have been in more pain than normal. I get my new tens unit Monday (YAY!). So I haven’t been doing much because my pain has been so bad. So yeah it’s been awful.

I also have some good news, I have applied to go into a school of ministry. Hopefully I will find out tomorrow if I am being accepted or not. So I may not be going to college this spring but instead following my dream and going into a school of ministry. So fingers crossed I get in!❤️💜💖🧡

Thank you so much for reading! Please keep me in your prayers and/or thought for tomorrow for my nerve block.

I love you all! See you again next week💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜🧡

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I have hope!☀️

Hey everyone! I hope you all had an amazing Christmas❤️💚 I am so sorry I kinda disappeared for a while. I have been out of town for a week so I have been crazy busy.

I have some exciting news: on the Monday before Christmas I saw a new doctor (the eighth one I have seen) he is actually going to treat me! Yay!☀️ after New Years, I am starting nerve blocks. I am really excited, nervous, anxious, and hopeful. It feels really good to finally have a doctor willing to work with me💖

Mentally:

I am much better mentally. Even though the stress of traveling, I haven’t felt depressed. My mood has been really great❤️

Physically:

Horrible. Just horrible. Fibromyalgia and traveling in a car for seven straight hours don’t mix well. I am hurting sooo bad. My back is killing me and my tens unit broke. Of course! So now I get a new tens unit soon thankfully. But man, I just hurt so bad.

Thank you so much for reading! I am really excited about this new year. This new year I am focusing on hope, joy, and gratitude! I am going to make it a wonderful year despite my pain❤️💖💚💜

Have an amazing day! I love you all!❤️

-xoxo Caty☀️💞💖

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I’m depressed again

Hey everyone! Welcome back! I am finally on Christmas break! Yay!

I have some good news: Since this summer I applied to go into a school of ministry. I didn’t hear anything back from them so I went to college in the fall. Well the school of ministry emailed me last week and I have an interview tomorrow to see if I get accepted to go into a school of ministry!❤️💜💜💖💙 I am very excited and really hope I get in!❤️❤️

Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

Honestly, I am not doing good at all. During the day I feel okay mentally but as the day goes on I get to feeling more and more sad. I don’t know why I am sad I just feel so sad. I mean it’s Christmas time, I am out of school, and I should feel happy but, I don’t. It’s been happening a lot, pretty much everyday. I might be getting depressed again. Which is really frustrating because life is hard enough not depressed. But I truly think I am chemically depressed. I just feel so sad, numb, empty, and I just want to cry. So yeah, I think I am depressed.

Physically:

My pain has been horrible. I have been seeing my chiropractor three times a week and sometimes it helps going and sometimes it doesn’t. I am having to wear my tens unit all the time. I see new pain doctor next week which will hopefully help. But yeah, it’s horrible.

I am really not okay.

I feel horrible.

But I will keep going.

I am sorry if this is depressing but this is truly how I feel.

Thank you for reading! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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It’s been rough

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here is an update on me:

Mentally:

I have been up and down. This week I have been super stressed because finals in next week. Most of the day I have been really down and Thursday I had a breakdown. But I saw my therapist and felt better. I just most feel stressed because of finals and down because of my physical pain being so bad. I am hanging in there. It’s been rough.

Physically:

I have been in a lot of physical pain due to fibromyalgia. I am tiring to get in to see a pain doctor since my last doctor didn’t work out. So far the pain doctor hasn’t called me back. I have just been hurting all day every day. It’s been rough tough and I have been so tired due to how much pain I am in. I have been having to take naps due to being so sleepy. I found this cream that has been helping but only helps for an hour. I have been going to see my chiropractor three days a week and that helps for a few hours. I have been wearing my tens unit a lot.

It’s been really rough but I have been making it. I am mostly just ready for finals to be over with and for Christmas break! So next week I will be on Christmas break!❤️ yay!❤️

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you have an amazing day! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Trying to hold on

Hey everyone!❤️ welcome back! Before I update you on me, I want to share some positive things that are happening:

I finally found a good Chircopractor who is really helping me. I have had a wonderful thanksgiving. My college semester is almost over and I have A’s and B’s. So yay!❤️

Here’s the update on me:

Mentally:

I have been feeling really depressed. I know I feel depressed because I am in so much physical pain due to fibromyalgia. But it’s still really hard. Last night I cried and cried because I was so sad and in so much pain. But thankfully my family was there to listen and love me. I feel really depressed just because of my pain but pain is pain. It’s been really rough.

Physically:

My physical pain is unbearable. I felt sick to my stomach last night because I was hurting so bad. I am in constant chronic pain. It’s never ending and it’s unbearable. It’s been really rough and hard.

I have been facing a lot but I will keep going. People keep telling me to be positive and happy but I don’t know how because I am in so much pain. I know there are good things in my life but all I feel is pain.

But I will hold on. I will keep going❤️

I am sorry if this update was depressing but it’s just how I have been truly feeling.

Thank you for listening! I love you all!❤️💖💙💜🧡 I will see you again next week!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜🧡💙

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Not doing good at all

Hey everyone❤️ welcome back! Here’s an update from me:

Mentally:

Honestly I am very depressed. I know I am probably depressed due to being in so much unbearable pain from fibromyalgia. But depression is depression and it’s sucks. I still keep going: go to school, do my homework, shower, do chores, use my coping a skills, but I still feel depressed. I’m not okay. I’m not alright. But I am making it. I am not giving up (even though I think about giving up a lot). I just keep going❤️

Physically:

My pain from fibromyalgia is unbearable. I am in constant chronic pain every minute of every day. I hurt so bad and it’s makes me so depressed. I feel sad, depressed, and I cry a lot. I am going to see a pain management clinic soon so hopefully that will help. I am seeing a new Chircopractor on Monday. So hopefully, something will help. Ugh. I just feel horrible. But I am making it. I am just taking it one day at a time💜

I do have some good news: my some of my poems are going to be published in a book by a poetry publishing company! Yay!❤️

So I am really not okay.

I’m really not alright.

But I am making it.

I am hanging in there.

Just taking each day, one minute at a time💖

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Thank you so much for reading! I love you all. See you next week!❤️💜💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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I’m not okay

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I am really struggling. I am feeling down and depressed a lot. Probably because I am working hard in therapy on overcoming the abuse I went through. It’s been really hard. Now in therapy I am talking about the lies I have believe about myself. Honestly I am not doing good mentally. I still going to school everyday and doing my homework. But I still feel very down and depressed a lot. I know I probably feel depressed because my physical pain from fibromyalgia has been really bad. So I am not okay.

Physically:

I am in a lot of pain everyday. I finally got my new tens unit which has been helping. My doctor increased my pain medicine that has helped but I am still in a lot of pain. I still believe that I have fibromyalgia because five doctors have told me I do. No matter what illness I have I am still in constant chronic pain everyday.

I am really not okay. I know it’s okay not to be okay❤️

I am sorry if this upload was depressing but honestly it how I feel❤️

Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers❤️

I love you all and will update again next week❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️