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It’s my 22 birthday❤️💜💖

I am officially 22❤️💜💖💞

When I turned 13 I went into a mental hospital for the first time. For the ages of 13-16: I ran away from God, went into a mental hospital 4 times, tried to kill myself twice, and got diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Then from the age of 16-19: I got diagnosed with bipolar type one, began close to God, had ECT treatments, started college, became sick, and got diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Then from 19-21: I have been depressed, in unbearable pain from fibromyalgia, published my book, went to ten different doctors, and tried everything to feel better.

Why I share all this because this is my story. When I was 13 I never thought I would live to see my 16th birthday. Even thought it’s been hell, I am here today turning 22. Life has been tough and it’s still tough. I have come a long way but I still have a long way to go. But I am proud of how far I have come. I am excited to see what this year begins❤️💜💖💞

I am sorry I haven’t updated in a while. I will do an update on me on Sunday❤️

Thank you for reading this! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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Honestly, I am not doing good at all

Hey everyone. I am sorry I haven’t been updating in a while. Honestly I haven’t wanted to post because I have been doing so bad.

Mentally:

I’m very depressed. I have been having suicidal thoughts. It sounds really nice just to disappear. I feel worthless, useless, and hopeless. I am safe but I do think about death a lot. I am just not okay. I don’t know when I will be. I’m just stressed, depressed, and in a lot pain.

Physically:

Horrible. I am have been in so much pain. I just feel constant stabbing pain every single second of every single day. I have a procedure done on May 18th it’s like a nerve block but stronger. I just pray that this procedure really helps❤️

I am sorry if it sounds like I am complaining but I am just saying how I am truly doing. I want to be open and honest with you guys and want to share the truth about life with mental and chronic illnesses.

Thank you for listening❤️ thank you for understand and supporting me. I love you all and I will be updating at least twice a week now❤️💜💖

I love you! Safe stay!💛🧡

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖🧡🧡

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I will be okay, just not today

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I have been feeling really down and depressed. I know I am feeling depressed because of my horrible fibromyalgia pain. I know I need to accept my fibromyalgia but I don’t know how. I still feel upset at God that I even have fibromyalgia. I just feel very sad and down all the time. It doesn’t help that I can’t go anywhere due to covid-19. Everything is closed where I live and I miss going places.

Physically:

My pain is horrible. I am in constant unbearable pain from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep. I hurt so bad with no pain relief. It’s exhausting, frustrating, and makes me feel depressed.

Honestly I am not doing so good but I am making it. I am taking it one day at a time. I know I will be okay just not today❤️💖💜

I am sorry if it seems like I am complaining, I am really not I am just being honest with how I feel. Thank you for listening❤️💖💜

Remember to check out my podcast called Chronically Caty where I talk about all things about mental health and chronic illness. I update every week! The links are below⬇️❤️💛

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/4aJlFcCxLNxQuXpnQD9gcQ

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

I love you all! Talk to you again next week❤️💖💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

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I am going to enjoy my life despite my pain💛

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t updated in the past few weeks been very busy with school. So here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I am up and down. But for the most part my mood is really good❤️ I don’t feel depressed and I feel happy!❤️💖💜 with school though I have been feeling stressed and overwhelmed. But for the most part my mood is good💛

Physically:

I have been in a lot of pain. It’s been rough. I am having to wear my tens unit all day along because my pain is so bad. I am hoping to see another pain doctor soon. It’s just frustrating living with constant chronic back pain. It’s tough but I am trying to focus on school and the good things in my life❤️

So overall I am doing better. My pain is not better but my mood is so I am going to focus on the good❤️💜💖

I am making it one day at a time💛 good things are coming and I am going to enjoy my life despite my pain!❤️💖💜

Thank you so much for reading!❤️

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Remember I host a podcast called Chronically Caty where I share my tips and tricks on how to live an amazing life with mental and/or chronic illnesses.

The links are below⬇️

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/4aJlFcCxLNxQuXpnQD9gcQ

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all and I will see you next week❤️💖💜💛

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

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I’m depressed (again) I am having suicidal thoughts (again) I am just a mess

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well. Here is an update one me:

Mentally:

I am depressed (again). I am having suicidal thoughts (again). I am having crazy up and down mood swings (again). Honestly, I want to give up. I feel so low, sad, down, depressed, suicidal, numb, empty, worthless, useless, and hopeless. I messaged my psychiatrist and I am trying a new mood stabilizer. But honestly there is not much my psychiatrist can do, I am already on so many other medicines. I think just with being in so much physical pain for three years I have become chemical depressed. I PROMISE I will NOT hurt myself. I PROMISE I am safe. Just keep me in your thoughts and/or prayers.

Physically:

Still doing horrible. I hurt so bad all the time. I am sick and tired of always being sick and tired. I am sick and tired of hurting all the damn time. It’s so frustrating and it hurts so bad. But I am seeing a new chiropractor so maybe that will help. Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore.

I am sorry if this post has been super depressing. This is my recovery blog and I am being honest about how I am doing. Living with fibromyalgia, bipolar, depression, anxiety, and social anxiety isn’t pretty. It’s messy, stressful, and frustrating. This is me being totally honest with you all. I am sorry if I have been annoying by talking about the same things every time. This is just my life and how I feel.

Thank you for listening. It always makes me happy knowing I have people who care to know how I am doing❤️💖💜

I love you all! Have an amazing week❤️💖💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

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It’s been a crazy week😅

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t posted in the past few weeks. Things have been crazy. So I am back and here is an update on me:

The events of this week:

I have been seeing a pain doctor who did my nerve blocks. The nerve blocks didn’t work. But this week I waited for 3 HOURS in his waiting room to hear him tell me this: “there is nothing more I can do for you. Fibromyalgia is hard to treat, lose weight, and follow up with your primary care doctor.” So he is not my doctor anymore. So of course that made me upset and cry. Just another doctor not wanting to help me. Then I called another doctor because he told me in his office that there are fibromyalgia doctors. So I called his office and asked if he can send me to the fibromyalgia doctors. His nurse told me: “there are no fibromyalgia doctors just rheumatologist.” I told her: “I have seen 10 rheumatologist! He told me there are fibromyalgia doctor.” She said: “no there isn’t.”

So now I have no doctor and all that happened in one week😓😢

Mentally:

Honestly I have been up and down. The events of this week have really made me feel down. But mostly I am okay. I don’t think I am depressed I just feel down and sad because have no doctor and being in so much pain from fibromyalgia. But mostly I am good and okay❤️💜💜

Physically:

It’s been really tough. I have been in a lot of pain this week. It’s been horrible. I have to wear my tens unit because it helps my pain but my tens unit is giving me a rash😰😭 so I am just in a lot of pain. It’s really hard. It makes me really sad and down.

Good things about this week:

My school work is going really well. I am really enjoying it. One of my best friends came over yesterday and we had an amazing time. I am trying a new medicine and so far I do see some positive results.

So even though it’s been a crazy stressed and disappointing week. I am going to focus on how today I am feeling better. I am just going to enjoy every day and focus on good things. I am trying to be more positive. Even though fibromyalgia sucks I can still be happy and enjoy my life. So I am going to focus on the good and enjoy❤️💜💖

Thank you so much for reading! Thank you for understanding me not posting in a while. I hope you have an amazing week and I will be posting again next Sunday ❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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I don’t know what to do anymore

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday and welcome back! Here is an update on me:

Mentally:

I have honestly been up and down. Since I know that my nerve block medicine makes me feel depressed and suicidal, I have been feeling depressed and suicidal. I have been having crazy mood swings. It’s hasn’t been great. But I know that it’s just due to the steroid medicine in the nerve block because people with bipolar (like me) can’t take steroids because it makes them depressed or manic. Steroids make me depressed and suicidal so honestly it’s been horrible. I know that this will pass once the medicine is out of my system but it’s been really rough. So yeah.

Physically:

Horrible. Just horrible. I have honestly been in so much pain it’s unbearable. The nerve blocks didn’t help so honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I see my pain doctor in a few weeks and I don’t know where to go from here. My pain just keeps getting worse and worse. Nothing is working or helping. I have been seeing a chiropractor for two months and that has not helped. I am going to start doing massages to see if that will help. Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought the nerve blocks would work but they didn’t. I am running out of ideas. I am scared I am always going to be in pain. My fear is becoming my reality.

I am sorry if this post is really depressing and sad. I feel really depressed and sad and this is just my thoughts.

The good thing is I LOVE going to school of ministry! So that makes me happy! 🙂

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all! 🙂

-xoxo Caty 🙂

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Doing much better☀️

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! Welcome back❤️ here another update on me:

Mentally:

So I thought I was getting really depressed again but it turns out that the medicine in the nerve blocks is a steroid so when you have bipolar (like me) steroids make you manic or depressed. So I am not depressed! Yay! Turns out it was just the nerve block medicine messing with my brain. But since I had figured that out I am doing much better and feeling happier❤️💖💜☀️🧡

Physically:

I had a nerve block this week which really helped! This nerve block has really helped! It works for about two days and then I started hurting again. But sadly my tens unit is giving me a rash😓 which is really frustrating because I have to wear it all the time to function. So I have had been having to wear it less. So please pray my tens unit stops giving me a rash because I have to wear it😅 but honestly I feel like my pain is getting better. It’s not gone and I am not pain free but my pain is better❤️💖💖

So all and all I am doing better. I start school of ministry tomorrow and I am super excited about it!❤️🧡💖💜☀️

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Remember I do a podcast called Jesus Saves Ministry where I talk about all things Jesus. I talk about hope, love, joy, rest, peace, guidance, faith, depression, pain, sorrow, anxiety, and so much more!❤️

Here are the links:

Podcast links:

Jesus Saves Ministry On Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/jesus-saves-ministry/id1465257311

Jesus Saves Ministry On Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/0qur0VdIoYSCdmLndTljxw

Jesus Saves Ministry On Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9iODQwYjM4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

Thank you so much for reading! I love you so much and see you next week❤️💖💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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Exciting new adventure!❤️💜💖

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! Here’s an update on me:

Amazing news: I got accepted into a school of ministry!!😊😊❤️😍 so instead of going to college I will be following my dreams and go to a school of ministry so I can get a degree and work in the church❤️💜💖 I am very excited!🧡🧡

Good news: my nerve helped! After my nerve block it worked for a few hours. Then the next few days I noticed I hurt less. So I have another on Thursday, and my doctor said as I do more I will see more positive affects❤️💜💖

Mentally:

I have been doing great!❤️ I have been really happy💖 I have decided that no matter what kind of pain I am in, I am going to live a happy and wonderful life! I have decided to choose to accept my illness but still love my life☀️

Physically:

My nerve block helps some but I am still in a lot of pain. It’s been rough. The weather has been bad so my pain is worse. But my tens unit has been helping which is really good. But it’s tough but I am making it❤️💖

I am on a new adventure to enjoy life despite fibromyalgia! I am so excited to go to the school of ministry in a few weeks. I am happy❤️💖💜☀️💝

Remember to check our my podcast called Jesus Saves Ministry which is where I share about all things Jesus. I talk about how to have peace, hope, joy, love, forgive, healing, guidance, and so much more!❤️

Podcast links:

Jesus Saves Ministry On Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/jesus-saves-ministry/id1465257311

Jesus Saves Ministry On Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/0qur0VdIoYSCdmLndTljxw

Jesus Saves Ministry On Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9iODQwYjM4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

Remember I also have a published book called: “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” which is also about Jesus and my personal story❤️ it’s on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.

Here are the links:

https://www.amazon.com/dp/1645692086

https://m.barnesandnoble.com/w/jesus-saves-daily-devotions-caty-lyle/1132516530?ean=9781645692089

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜☀️🧡

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Hoping this nerve block works❤️

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! I hope you have had an amazing week. Here is an update on me:

Big news: tomorrow I have my first nerve block. I am excited, scared, nervous, but mostly just hoping it works💖

Mentally:

Even though my physical pain has been unbearable but mood has been really good. I don’t feel depressed which is amazing and really helps. It’s nice to say I feel good mentally🧡

Physically:

Awful. Horrible. Unbearable. I have been without my tens unit because my last one broke (UGH) so I have been in more pain than normal. I get my new tens unit Monday (YAY!). So I haven’t been doing much because my pain has been so bad. So yeah it’s been awful.

I also have some good news, I have applied to go into a school of ministry. Hopefully I will find out tomorrow if I am being accepted or not. So I may not be going to college this spring but instead following my dream and going into a school of ministry. So fingers crossed I get in!❤️💜💖🧡

Thank you so much for reading! Please keep me in your prayers and/or thought for tomorrow for my nerve block.

I love you all! See you again next week💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜🧡