Daily life

Making the most of my life while in pain❤️💗

Hey everyone so I am back so here is an honest update on me:

Mentally:

I am up and down. Some days like today I am in a really good mood and I don’t know why. Other days I am down in pit or depression and cry a lot. So my moods are like a bipolar roller coaster 😂 but today I am in a good mood so I am going to enjoy it❤️💜

Physically:

Goodness I am in so much pain. My pain has awful, unbearable, and so frustrating. It’s just constant chronic back pain that wears me down. It’s makes me so down and sad. Dealing with fibromyalgia makes me want to pull my hair out. My pain has been so bad lately and it’s exhausting. Hurting 24/7 is very depressing. I do my best to not let me bring me down but sometimes it just does. It’s hurt to be okay when you are in constant chronic back pain. It’s hard to do life when I am in constant pain.

But you know I am doing my best. Everyday I get up and go to college and do my work. So I am making the best of a really hard circumstances. I do find joy in life in my writing, crocheting, college, and petting my cats🐱🐱🐱

But I do have some amazing news! Next semester I am doing an internship at my school where I will be editing, writing, and publishing a magazine with my college. I am so excited about this because what I want to do with my degree is to be a book publisher and editor. So I am doing an internship in my career field. So I am super happy about it and I start it next semester❤️💜💗🥰💛

Even though I am in pain and my mood are up and down. I am still enjoying and making the best of my life. So I am proud of myself for that❤️💗💗🥰

Thank you so much for reading and for all your love and support❤️💗💗

I love you all❤️💜🥰💛💙🧡

-xoxo Caty❤️💗💗🥰💛🧡💙

Daily life, Poetry

Poem by me: I’m Trapped Inside a Prison of Pain

Hey everyone, I am so sorry it’s been so long since I have updated. Today I don’t really feel like doing an honest update but instead I am going to post a poem so here it is:

I’m Trapped Inside a Prison of Pain

I’m trapped,

Inside a prison of pain.

There is no light here.

Only the darkness,

And my demon

My demon is:

Fibromyalgia,

Fibromyalgia causes me:

Unbearable, constant, and chronic back pain.

He stabs my back with thousands of knives.

He never stops.

He is always making me hurt.

He makes me cry out in pain.

He makes me want to die.

He keeps me trapped,

In this prison of pain.

Mentally, I have so many plans.

But fibromyalgia,

Says hell no to all my ideas.

Mentally, I want to get better.

But with fibromyalgia,

There is no “getting better.”

Only: “getting used to it.”

I want to break free.

I want to break out of this prison.

But sadly,

I am chained to a wall,

With no hope of escape.

There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

There is no hope of “getting better.”

Fibromyalgia beats me constantly.

Sometimes I wonder:

“Is life even worth it?”

I even doubt my faith in God.

How could a good God,

Let fibromyalgia kill me day and night?!

Why is this happening to me?

Why won’t God save me from this prison?!

But God’s answer,

Is no.

So forever and ever,

I will always be trapped,

In a prison of pain.

***

Thank you so much for reading everyone. Thank you for all your love and support❤️💗💜 I love you all❤️💗💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💗💜

Daily life

Mentally, great💗Physically, horrible

Hey everyone! Welcome back. Here is an honest update on me.

I will start with the good news first 😂

Mentally: I have honestly been doing wonderful mentally. Despite being in a lot of pain physically, my mood has been great. Now last night I was down but the was the first night in a long time that I felt down. So my mental state is great so I am really happy about that❤️🥰💗💜

Physically:

Ugh. It’s been horrible. I do know that this new treatment I have been doing helps most days but somedays nothing helps me feel better. It’s just constant chronic back pain. It’s exhausting and it’s so frustrating. It feels like twenty different knifes are stabbing into my back all the time. It’s unbearable. But I am making the best of it but getting out of bed everyday. So even though I am in pain, my mood is great so I am very happy about that❤️💗💜

Tomorrow I start back college for my spring semester so I am excited and nervous about that. So I will be posting less due to homework but I promise I will post as much as I can❤️💗

I want to thank you all for your love, support, and for reading this. It truly helps me knowing that you guys care about me and want to know how I am doing. So thank you🥰💜

I love you all!❤️💗💜😍🥰💜

💜links❤️

My published book “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Saves-Daily-Devotions-Caty-Lyle/dp/1645692086/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=caty+lyle&qid=1586797431&sr=8-1

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/catythewriter/

Podcast link:

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Walking With Jesus A Daily Devotional:

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-xoxo Caty❤️💗💜

Daily life

Honest update on me

Hey everyone! I hope you had an amazing Christmas❤️💚🎄❄️⛄️🎁 here is an honest update on me:

I have THE BEST NEWS: I found a new treatment for my fibromyalgia and ever since I have been using this treatment, I have had less pain! My pain is not gone it’s so much better🥰💗❤️

Physically:

The past two days I have been in a flare so my pain is pretty bad. So that’s rough. It’s been really tough. Flares are the worse and this flare was triggered by the weather. If you have ever heard someone say that their chronic pain changes with the weather that is completely true. The weather can really affect and hurt any chronic pain. ❤️💗💚 but I FINALY think I found a treatment that truly works for me🥰💚

Mentally:

I am really good. I have been up and down. Yesterday I was down but today I am much better💗❤️💚💜

Even though I am still in pain I am much better from where I used to be. Praise Jesus it’s better❤️💗💚💜

Also idk i have told you guys this but I was diagnosed with PCOS this year which is an autoimmune disease. My GI doctor believes I have psoriatic arthritis so I am seeing a rheumatologist in February. So hopefully when I was my doctor I will get some answer and hopefully soon treatment that will really help.

But honestly guys, I am doing okay. Yes I still have pain. But I am in a good mood and I am enjoying every moment when my pain is better❤️💗💚💜

I am excited and ready for the New Year!❤️💗

Thank you so much for reading. Thank you all for your support, love, and prayers❤️💚💜💗

I love you all!💗❤️💚💜

Have a blessed day💗❤️🧡💛

💜links❤️

My published book “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Saves-Daily-Devotions-Caty-Lyle/dp/1645692086/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=caty+lyle&qid=1586797431&sr=8-1

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Walking With Jesus A Daily Devotional:

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-xoxo Caty❤️🧡💛

Daily life

Long overdue update

Here’s an long overdue update.

So I know I haven’t been posting much and I am sorry for that. But now that I am on Christmas break, you will be seeing more post.

So how I am doing?

Mentally I am doing great. But physically I am in a lot of pain. My pain is constant and never ending. Physically I am exhausted and hurting so bad. I just wake up and its there. The constant chronic back pain that will never go away. It makes me sick and tired of being sick and tired. I pray every day for God to heal me. It’s exhausting and it really sucks.

But I am trying some new mixture for my fibromyalgia so hopefully that will help.

Also I don’t know if I have told you guys this or not that I was diagnosed with PCOS and it has really affected me. But you know just another illness.

Also my GI doctor thinks I have psoriatic arthritis. So I see my rheumatologist in February and maybe getting this treated will help my back pain. So I have hope that treating that.

But right now, I am exhausted being in constant chronic pain. But I am making it. This year has been tough but this Christmas is going to be amazing because I will make it amazing💗💜

Thank you so much for your support and love💗💜

I love you so much💗💜

💜links❤️

My published book “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Saves-Daily-Devotions-Caty-Lyle/dp/1645692086/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=caty+lyle&qid=1586797431&sr=8-1

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/catythewriter/

Podcast link:

https://anchor.fm/jesussavesministry

Medium:

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Walking With Jesus A Daily Devotional:

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❤️My Etsy shop link:💜

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-xoxo Caty💗💜

Daily life

An long overdue honest update

An honest update on me:

Hey everyone, I know it’s been a while since I have posted. I am back and I am going to *try* to post weekly or every other week. So just know that I am busy with college but I will always continue this blog because I love you guys💗💜❤️🤍

News from the doctor:

For the past few month I have been having symptoms of PCOS so I was diagnosed with PCOS by my OBGYN last week. I also got bad news about my liver. Even though I said before that I got good news on my liver. It turns out my latest lab work about my liver is horrible. So I am having another liver ultrasound tomorrow and getting labs done tomorrow. My doctor believes I have a rare form of arthritis or I may have a liver disease. So yeah keep me in your thoughts and prayers💗💜❤️

Mentally:

Guys, it’s bad. I am very depressed to point where I am now having suicidal thoughts. (I am safe and it’s just thoughts). I have been depressed for months and yesterday I just finally started having suicidal thoughts again. So I am bad again. I am seeing my therapist this week and maybe even call my psychiatrist. But I know what my psychiatrist will say I need to go to a mental hospitals. (I will NEVER go to another mental hospital again because I went four different times and hated it). I am taking care of myself so that’s good. I am just bad again. So I am just going to keep going. I am still functioning very well. But I still I feel awful.

Physically:

I am in so much pain all the time. I am having to wear my tens units a lot more. I am just struggling physically. Going to college full time is exhausting and I am just hurting a lot.

I am making it. I will always keep going but this is the reality of living with mental and chronic illnesses💗

💜links❤️

My published book “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Saves-Daily-Devotions-Caty-Lyle/dp/1645692086/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=caty+lyle&qid=1586797431&sr=8-1

My Website: https://catythewriter.com/

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/catythewriter/

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Thank you so much for reading! I thank you for all your love and support💗💜❤️

I love you! Have a blessed day💗💜

-xoxo Caty💗❤️🧡💛

Daily life

How to have peace

How to have peace❤️💜💗

Verses: ‘You will keep in perfect and constant peace the one whose mind is steadfast [that is, committed and focused on You—in both inclination and character], Because he trusts and takes refuge in You [with hope and confident expectation]. ‘

Isaiah 26:3

How to have peace.

So I am sure you are wondering? How do we have peace Caty? I know right now in the days we are living in, peace feels impossible. But it’s not! Peace doesn’t come from the world, true peace only comes from Jesus. So how do you get peace from Jesus?

1. Seek God by praying for peace, worshiping Him, listening to Him, and reading His word daily!

To be honest with you, I haven’t been reading my Bible everyday. Lately this semester of college has been so tough and I have had so much homework. But today I am making a commitment that I will pray and read my Bible everyday. Because the more we seek God by reading His word and praying, we will be able to build a close relationship with God. The Bible says the more we dear near to Jesus, the more He will draw near to us (Psalm 125:1-2). So we will be able to have a close relationship with God, and that is the best relationship we can have.

2. We have to fix our thoughts on Jesus.

This step is probably the hardest because we have to think about what we are thinking about. Then we think thoughts that are lies from the Devil, we need to stop thinking that thought, and think about what Jesus says about us.

Here is what Jesus says about us:

You are beautiful. (Psalm 45:11)

You are unique. (Psalm 139:13)

You are loved. (Jeremiah 31:3)

You are special. (Ephesians 2:10)

You are created with a purpose. (Jeremiah 29:11)

You are cared for. (Ephesians 3:17-19)

You are lovely. (Daniel 12:3)

You are precious. ( 1 Corinthians 6:20)

You are strong. (Psalm 18:35)

You are important. (1 Peter 2:9)

You are forgiven. ( Psalm 103:12)

You are protected. (Psalm 121:3)

You are chosen. (John 15:16)

You are mine. (Isaiah 43:1)

Whenever we think: “I am not good enough.” We need to think about how we are good enough in Christ. Post that list on your bathroom mirror if you have to. But remember that in God, you are loved (Jeremiah 31:3) and cared for (Ephesians 3:17-19).

3. We have to put our trust in God.

In this step, you have to surrender EVERYTHING to Jesus. You surrender all your: thoughts, fears, worries, doubts, anxieties, dreams, hopes, and your life to Jesus. You complete surrender all to Jesus. How do you surrender all to God? By trusting in Him. You trust in God by believing in His word even when you are going through storms. You trust in God’s goodness even when nothing in your life is good. You believe in the cross and that He died and rose again. And you believe in His promises:

God’s promises:

God will love you forever. (Psalm 136:1)

God will never leave you. (Hebrews 13:5)

God will comfort you. (Isaiah 49:13)

God will help you and always be there for you. (Psalm 121:1-2)

God is always faithful. (Psalm 33:4)

God keeps His promises. (Deuteronomy 7:9)

God is good. (Psalm 31:19)

God will draw near to you. (Psalm 125:1-2)

You can do all things through Christ. (Phillpians 4:13)

With God on your side, you can do anything! (Matthew 19:26)

God has an amazing plan for your life. (Jeremiah 29:11)

God is for you and on your side. (Psalm 118:6)

God is all around you. (Psalm 125:1,2)

God never changes. (Hebrews 13:8)

How do you find peace in God?

1. You seek God daily.

2. You fix your thoughts on Jesus

3. You trust in God and all of His promises

Prayer:

Dear God,

I pray that as I seek you daily, fix my thoughts on you, trust in you and all your promises, that you bless me with your peace. Help me know that even when my circumstances aren’t good that you are still good. Help me remember that even when I don’t feel you that I know you are there. I put my faith, hope, and trust in you. I surrender everything to you. I pray you grab my hand and help me every single day of my life. I pray you never leave me. I pray you help me with whatever I am facing and that you bless me with everything I need. I thank you for your goodness, love, grace, and mercy. I thank you for being so good to me. I love you Lord. I praise you for you are my King!

I thank you for all my many blessings and for Your Son.

In Jesus’s name, I pray, Amen!

***

Hey beautiful! I hope you are having a wonderful day! Thank you so much for reading. I love you all❤️💗💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💗

Daily life

Things are looking up💛

Hey everyone it’s Caty and here is an update on me.

This week has been really hard. I was in a lot of pain for most of the week. But this weekend my pain has been soooo much better! I barely had to wear my tens unit this weekend which is amazing❤️💗💜 my mood this week has been down but my mood this weekend has been great!💛💛

Right now I am struggling a lot with my biology class in college for hopefully my teacher will start tutoring me so I can pull my grade up. But honestly this weekend has been great💛🧡💜

I am feeling the best I have felt in weeks and it’s amazing❤️💗💜

I am going to *try* to start posting weekly but if I don’t you know I am doing homework or studying❤️

Remember to check out my book, podcast, and social media:

💜links❤️

My published book “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Saves-Daily-Devotions-Caty-Lyle/dp/1645692086/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=caty+lyle&qid=1586797431&sr=8-1

My Website: https://catythewriter.com/

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I hope you have an amazing day! Thank you so for all your love and support!❤️🧡💛

I love you so much! And thank you for reading💗

-xoxo Caty💗💓💞

Daily life

I am doing SOO much better💗

Hey everyone! I am so sorry it’s been so long since I updated but now I am back!

Here’s an update on me:

Mentally: I am doing SOO much better! My mood has been great!💜💗💖 since I have been taking a new medicine for my pain, my mood has been hopeful💛 I am finally feeling happy again💛

Physically:

I have been in some pain but it comes and goes. So it’s no longer unbearable constant pain! Yay💜 this new medicine I am on has been life changing. My pain is not gone but most days it’s under control. Now this weekend I have been in a lot of pain but I am making💜 I am just so happy I am doing so much better💛

Good news: I started back college last week and it went really well! I am excited for this new semester and I love all my teachers💗

Things are going great, I couldn’t be happier💛

Remember you can always find me on social media:

💜links❤️

Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/user/catyloveswriting

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/catythewriter/

My published book “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Saves-Daily-Devotions-Caty-Lyle/dp/1645692086/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=caty+lyle&qid=1586797431&sr=8-1

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My podcast:

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Thank you so much for reading! I love all your support and love💜 I will try to update this blog weekly but if I don’t it’s because I am doing school work💛

-xoxo Caty💗💗💗

Daily life

Amazing news!❤️💜💖💛💗

Amazing news!❤️💖💜💗💛

Hey everyone! I am so sorry it’s been so long since I have posted an update but I have some amazing news:

As you all know I have been struggling badly with my fibromyalgia well I found a medicine that pretty much takes all my pain away!!! It’s a miracle!!!❤️💜💖😊💗💗 I am feeling the best I have felt in years!! It’s amazing and praise Jesus❤️💖💜💗💛

Mentally:

Since my physical pain is FINALLY better I am no longer depressed! It’s amazing😊💗💖 but I have been struggling a lot with my anxiety.

I talked with my psychiatrist today so he is increasing my anxiety medicine. So hopefully my anxiety will get better and be under control😊💜

Physically:

I AM SO MUCH BETTER!!!😊😊😊😊 I still have pain but it’s not bad at all. I don’t even have to wear my tens unit all the time anymore! I just use a heating pad and I feel better😊💖💜 this is really a dream come true I LOVE feeling better😊💖

So thank you so much everyone for all your love, support, prayers, and thoughts. I was so happy to share my good news with all of you💜

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-xoxo Caty❤️💛💙