Daily life, Poetry

Poem by me: I’m Trapped Inside a Prison of Pain

Hey everyone, I am so sorry it’s been so long since I have updated. Today I don’t really feel like doing an honest update but instead I am going to post a poem so here it is:

I’m Trapped Inside a Prison of Pain

I’m trapped,

Inside a prison of pain.

There is no light here.

Only the darkness,

And my demon

My demon is:

Fibromyalgia,

Fibromyalgia causes me:

Unbearable, constant, and chronic back pain.

He stabs my back with thousands of knives.

He never stops.

He is always making me hurt.

He makes me cry out in pain.

He makes me want to die.

He keeps me trapped,

In this prison of pain.

Mentally, I have so many plans.

But fibromyalgia,

Says hell no to all my ideas.

Mentally, I want to get better.

But with fibromyalgia,

There is no “getting better.”

Only: “getting used to it.”

I want to break free.

I want to break out of this prison.

But sadly,

I am chained to a wall,

With no hope of escape.

There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

There is no hope of “getting better.”

Fibromyalgia beats me constantly.

Sometimes I wonder:

“Is life even worth it?”

I even doubt my faith in God.

How could a good God,

Let fibromyalgia kill me day and night?!

Why is this happening to me?

Why won’t God save me from this prison?!

But God’s answer,

Is no.

So forever and ever,

I will always be trapped,

In a prison of pain.

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Thank you so much for reading everyone. Thank you for all your love and support❤️💗💜 I love you all❤️💗💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💗💜

Poetry

Poem: To Begin Again

To Begin Again

After years of mental pain,

After years of physical pain,

I am finally ready,

To begin again.

I am ready to live again.

I want to be happy,

Despite the pain.

I want to enjoy life,

Despite my illnesses.

I want to see the world.

Be able to go places again.

Be able to go back on my college’s campus again.

I want to live,

Not just survive.

I want to enjoy everyday.

I want to enjoy,

Every moment.

I know,

I will still hurt.

I know,

I am not cured.

But I am ready,

To begin again.

For the first time in two years,

I have traveled.

For the first time in two years,

I can go places again.

I can live!

I want to live!

I want to make more friends.

I want to fall in love.

I want to love everyday.

I am ready,

To begin again.

This fall,

I am going taking classes on campus.

It’s scary.

I’m scared.

But it’s time

I can’t wait!

I spend my whole life in pain,

I want to spend the rest of it:

Happy,

Joyful,

And in love with life.

No matter how much I hurt,

I will love life.

No matter what comes my way,

I will be okay.

I am ready!

Oh,

I am so ready!

I am ready,

To begin again.

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I also have a mental illness and chronic illness YouTube channel called Chronically Caty. I hope you can check it out❤️

Link’s right here⬇️⬇️

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCmKWMEo9KAr8-9wZ0PqQDlw

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Hey everyone! I hope you enjoyed this! I love you so much! I hope you are having a wonderful day! Thank you so much for reading❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️