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I’m bad again…

Hey everyone! Welcome back. I hope you are having an amazing Father’s Day, here’s an update on me:

**trigger warning: talk about suicidal thoughts****

Mentally:

I am very depressed. Last night I started having suicidal thoughts. Ugh. I thought I was just depressed because of my pain but it’s more than that. I believe I am chemically depressed because all I could think about last night was death and laying in bed all day. It’s bad. It’s really bad. But I am safe. I do not have a plan. I just have suicidal thoughts. I am talking with my psychiatrist this week so hopefully we could change some of my medicines. I will just keep going. I promise you all I will not harm myself and I will never ever give up❤️

Physically:

Ugh so much unbearable pain. The pain is constant and never goes away. I am losing hope that I will ever feel bad. I just hurt every single of everyday. I am exhausted and in so much pain.

Good new: I am on a new medicine for my fibromyalgia, I see my pain doctor in one week, and I talk to my psychiatrist this week as well.

I promise you guys: I am safe. I will not harm myself. I will keep going and I will not give up❤️💜💖

Thank you all for listening. I love writing to you all every week. It’s nice having a safe place to talk about how I am really doing💛

Remember to follow me on social media:

https://linktr.ee/catythewriter

I love you all. See you next week💛

-xoxo Caty💛💖💜❤️

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I am depressed and in unbearable pain

Hey everyone! I am back! I am sorry it’s been so long since I have post but here I am, and here is an update on me:

Mentally:

I feel depressed (again). I believe it’s chemical this time because I have been feeling depressed for months but now I believe it chemical so I will message my psychiatrist to see if we can change some of my medicines. I know with my physical pain being horrible as it has been that doesn’t help. But yeah I feel depressed again. I just feel empty, numb, and sad for no reason. So yeah. But hopefully I will feel better soon with the help of my doctor.

Physically:

Unbearable. I have been in a flare for the past few days. My pain has just been unbearable. It’s killing me. It’s exhausting and ugh I hate it.

Good news:

I have another pain procedure on Tuesday it’s like a nerve block but stronger so that should help for a few days. Then if that is successful I will be another procedure where the doctor will burn my nerves. So I am hopefully that these procedures will help❤️💜💖

I am sorry if it sounds like I am complaining. I am not I am just stating how life really is when you live with constant chronic pain and mental illnesses.

Thank you for listening! I will try to start posting weekly again❤️💜💖

I love you all!❤️💜💖

Remember you can find all my links here:

https://linktr.ee/catythewriterhttps://linktr.ee/catythewriter

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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I’m exhausted and in unbearable physical pain😪

Hey everyone! Welcome back! I hope you have had a wonderful weekend. So here some good news first:

I had a good weekend! One of my best friends came over and we had an amazing time. Today I actually went to a store since Covid-19, I got my cat some toys so hopefully he likes it. So it was a really good weekend❤️💜💜

Bad news: my pain procedure that was planned for today has been canceled due to my insurance not approving the procedure in time. So I rescheduled and will have the procedure in two week.

Mentally:

I have been up and down. But as you all know I am a Christian but I have been struggling with my faith. So that’s been really hard on me mentally. I depend on my faith in God and lately I just haven’t had strong faith. But I am working on it. So that’s good but it’s a process. Honestly I think my faith isn’t as strong due to how much physical pain I am in due to fibromyalgia. So I have been feeling down and depressed. But I am hanging in there. It’s been tough but I am making it❤️

Physically:

Ughhhh been its been unbearable. I was in a flare all last week and it was horrible! Today I am still hurting pretty bad. Honestly I am so exhausted, hurting way to much, and just wish I was better already. It feel like my pain just keeps getting worse and worse. I have had to stop doing some chores because I physically can’t do them anymore. It’s tough to stop doing thing because you physically can’t. It’s been horrible but I am pray this pain procedure in two week just really helps.

Thank you for listening. I am sorry if it sounded like I was complaining. I really wasn’t I was just sharing the truth about living with all my illnesses. I want to be honest with all of you❤️

Remember you can always find all my social media links here:⬇️

https://linktr.ee/catythewriter

Thank you again for reading. See you again next week! I love you all❤️💜💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

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I am making it, day by day💛

Hey everyone! Welcome back!❤️ I hope you have had a wonderful week. I do have some good news to share:

Good news: my procedure I am done (which was a branch block which is like a nerve block but stronger) it was a success!💛 my pain was gone for a whole day and one half of a day❤️ it was sooo nice not hurting😍 so now in two weeks I am having that same procedure done. Then if that works my doctor will do a major procedure where they burn my nerves. So I am very excited and scared at the same thing😬😅

Mentally: I have been up and down. Mostly down. I have just been feeling pretty down and depressed since my physical pain has been come back and been horrible. But today I have been in a great mood which is awesome❤️💜💛 I am just taking it, day by day and just keep making through each day💙

Physically: since my pain has come back it’s been awful. It’s been unbearable these past few days. It’s been raining and rain always makes me hurt more. But today my pain is better so that’s good. And soon I have my second procedure. So even though the pain, there are good things coming❤️💜💖💙💛

Even though it’s been tough lately. I have been making, day by day. I will continue to make it, day and day❤️💜💖💛💙

Remember you can always check out my podcasts, book, and social media. Here are all my links:

💜LINKS❤️

Facebook: https://m.facebook.com/catyloveswriting/

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/catythewriter/?hl=en

Twitter: https://twitter.com/catythewriter

Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/usercatyloveswriting

My published book “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-Saves-Daily-Devotions-Caty-Lyle/dp/1645692086/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=caty+lyle&qid=1586797431&sr=8-1

My Website: https://catythewriter.com/

Podcast links:

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

Podcast links:

Jesus Saves Ministry On Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/jesus-saves-ministry/id1465257311

Jesus Saves Ministry On Spotify:

Jesus Saves Ministry On Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9iODQwYjM4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

Email list:

https://mailchi.mp/600769de4204/catylyle

Thank you for reading and listening! I love you so much! See you next week!❤️🤗

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖💙

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Up and down☀️⬇️

Hey everyone! Welcome back! I hope you are having an amazing day. Here’s an update from me:

Mentally:

I have been up and down. I don’t think I am depressed (YAY!). I am just having lots and lots of mood swings. I am talking with my psychiatrist tomorrow so I will talk to him about my mood swings. But honestly I am hanging in there. It’s been tough but I am making❤️💜💖

Physically:

Ughhh. So bad. So much pain!!! My pain has been sooo bad. I have been in lots of flares. I just constantly feel unbearable pain. I am looking forward to my procedure in May and really hope it helps. I need some help with my fibromyalgia. Even though I have been in a lot of pain. I have been getting up everyday so I am proud of myself for making it even through the pain❤️💜💖

Thank you so much for all your love and support! I hope it hasn’t sounded like I am complaining but I am not trying to. Just sharing the ups and downs of life☀️ I am making it so I am proud of that💞

Thank you so much for reading!❤️

Remember I host a podcast called Chronically Caty is all about sharing hope to those who struggle with mental and/or chronic illnesses💖

Here’s the links to my podcast:

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

❤️❤️❤️

I love you all!💜❤️💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖☀️

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It’s my 22 birthday❤️💜💖

I am officially 22❤️💜💖💞

When I turned 13 I went into a mental hospital for the first time. For the ages of 13-16: I ran away from God, went into a mental hospital 4 times, tried to kill myself twice, and got diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Then from the age of 16-19: I got diagnosed with bipolar type one, began close to God, had ECT treatments, started college, became sick, and got diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Then from 19-21: I have been depressed, in unbearable pain from fibromyalgia, published my book, went to ten different doctors, and tried everything to feel better.

Why I share all this because this is my story. When I was 13 I never thought I would live to see my 16th birthday. Even thought it’s been hell, I am here today turning 22. Life has been tough and it’s still tough. I have come a long way but I still have a long way to go. But I am proud of how far I have come. I am excited to see what this year begins❤️💜💖💞

I am sorry I haven’t updated in a while. I will do an update on me on Sunday❤️

Thank you for reading this! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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Honestly, I am not doing good at all

Hey everyone. I am sorry I haven’t been updating in a while. Honestly I haven’t wanted to post because I have been doing so bad.

Mentally:

I’m very depressed. I have been having suicidal thoughts. It sounds really nice just to disappear. I feel worthless, useless, and hopeless. I am safe but I do think about death a lot. I am just not okay. I don’t know when I will be. I’m just stressed, depressed, and in a lot pain.

Physically:

Horrible. I am have been in so much pain. I just feel constant stabbing pain every single second of every single day. I have a procedure done on May 18th it’s like a nerve block but stronger. I just pray that this procedure really helps❤️

I am sorry if it sounds like I am complaining but I am just saying how I am truly doing. I want to be open and honest with you guys and want to share the truth about life with mental and chronic illnesses.

Thank you for listening❤️ thank you for understand and supporting me. I love you all and I will be updating at least twice a week now❤️💜💖

I love you! Safe stay!💛🧡

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖🧡🧡

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I will be okay, just not today

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I have been feeling really down and depressed. I know I am feeling depressed because of my horrible fibromyalgia pain. I know I need to accept my fibromyalgia but I don’t know how. I still feel upset at God that I even have fibromyalgia. I just feel very sad and down all the time. It doesn’t help that I can’t go anywhere due to covid-19. Everything is closed where I live and I miss going places.

Physically:

My pain is horrible. I am in constant unbearable pain from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep. I hurt so bad with no pain relief. It’s exhausting, frustrating, and makes me feel depressed.

Honestly I am not doing so good but I am making it. I am taking it one day at a time. I know I will be okay just not today❤️💖💜

I am sorry if it seems like I am complaining, I am really not I am just being honest with how I feel. Thank you for listening❤️💖💜

Remember to check out my podcast called Chronically Caty where I talk about all things about mental health and chronic illness. I update every week! The links are below⬇️❤️💛

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/4aJlFcCxLNxQuXpnQD9gcQ

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

I love you all! Talk to you again next week❤️💖💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

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I am going to enjoy my life despite my pain💛

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t updated in the past few weeks been very busy with school. So here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I am up and down. But for the most part my mood is really good❤️ I don’t feel depressed and I feel happy!❤️💖💜 with school though I have been feeling stressed and overwhelmed. But for the most part my mood is good💛

Physically:

I have been in a lot of pain. It’s been rough. I am having to wear my tens unit all day along because my pain is so bad. I am hoping to see another pain doctor soon. It’s just frustrating living with constant chronic back pain. It’s tough but I am trying to focus on school and the good things in my life❤️

So overall I am doing better. My pain is not better but my mood is so I am going to focus on the good❤️💜💖

I am making it one day at a time💛 good things are coming and I am going to enjoy my life despite my pain!❤️💖💜

Thank you so much for reading!❤️

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Remember I host a podcast called Chronically Caty where I share my tips and tricks on how to live an amazing life with mental and/or chronic illnesses.

The links are below⬇️

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/4aJlFcCxLNxQuXpnQD9gcQ

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all and I will see you next week❤️💖💜💛

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

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It’s been a crazy week😅

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t posted in the past few weeks. Things have been crazy. So I am back and here is an update on me:

The events of this week:

I have been seeing a pain doctor who did my nerve blocks. The nerve blocks didn’t work. But this week I waited for 3 HOURS in his waiting room to hear him tell me this: “there is nothing more I can do for you. Fibromyalgia is hard to treat, lose weight, and follow up with your primary care doctor.” So he is not my doctor anymore. So of course that made me upset and cry. Just another doctor not wanting to help me. Then I called another doctor because he told me in his office that there are fibromyalgia doctors. So I called his office and asked if he can send me to the fibromyalgia doctors. His nurse told me: “there are no fibromyalgia doctors just rheumatologist.” I told her: “I have seen 10 rheumatologist! He told me there are fibromyalgia doctor.” She said: “no there isn’t.”

So now I have no doctor and all that happened in one week😓😢

Mentally:

Honestly I have been up and down. The events of this week have really made me feel down. But mostly I am okay. I don’t think I am depressed I just feel down and sad because have no doctor and being in so much pain from fibromyalgia. But mostly I am good and okay❤️💜💜

Physically:

It’s been really tough. I have been in a lot of pain this week. It’s been horrible. I have to wear my tens unit because it helps my pain but my tens unit is giving me a rash😰😭 so I am just in a lot of pain. It’s really hard. It makes me really sad and down.

Good things about this week:

My school work is going really well. I am really enjoying it. One of my best friends came over yesterday and we had an amazing time. I am trying a new medicine and so far I do see some positive results.

So even though it’s been a crazy stressed and disappointing week. I am going to focus on how today I am feeling better. I am just going to enjoy every day and focus on good things. I am trying to be more positive. Even though fibromyalgia sucks I can still be happy and enjoy my life. So I am going to focus on the good and enjoy❤️💜💖

Thank you so much for reading! Thank you for understanding me not posting in a while. I hope you have an amazing week and I will be posting again next Sunday ❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖