Hey everyone. I am sorry I haven’t been updating in a while. Honestly I haven’t wanted to post because I have been doing so bad.
I’m very depressed. I have been having suicidal thoughts. It sounds really nice just to disappear. I feel worthless, useless, and hopeless. I am safe but I do think about death a lot. I am just not okay. I don’t know when I will be. I’m just stressed, depressed, and in a lot pain.
Horrible. I am have been in so much pain. I just feel constant stabbing pain every single second of every single day. I have a procedure done on May 18th it’s like a nerve block but stronger. I just pray that this procedure really helps❤️
I am sorry if it sounds like I am complaining but I am just saying how I am truly doing. I want to be open and honest with you guys and want to share the truth about life with mental and chronic illnesses.
Thank you for listening❤️ thank you for understand and supporting me. I love you all and I will be updating at least twice a week now❤️💜💖
I love you! Safe stay!💛🧡
Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:
I have been feeling really down and depressed. I know I am feeling depressed because of my horrible fibromyalgia pain. I know I need to accept my fibromyalgia but I don’t know how. I still feel upset at God that I even have fibromyalgia. I just feel very sad and down all the time. It doesn’t help that I can’t go anywhere due to covid-19. Everything is closed where I live and I miss going places.
My pain is horrible. I am in constant unbearable pain from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep. I hurt so bad with no pain relief. It’s exhausting, frustrating, and makes me feel depressed.
Honestly I am not doing so good but I am making it. I am taking it one day at a time. I know I will be okay just not today❤️💖💜
I am sorry if it seems like I am complaining, I am really not I am just being honest with how I feel. Thank you for listening❤️💖💜
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I love you all! Talk to you again next week❤️💖💜
Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t updated in the past few weeks been very busy with school. So here’s an update on me:
I am up and down. But for the most part my mood is really good❤️ I don’t feel depressed and I feel happy!❤️💖💜 with school though I have been feeling stressed and overwhelmed. But for the most part my mood is good💛
I have been in a lot of pain. It’s been rough. I am having to wear my tens unit all day along because my pain is so bad. I am hoping to see another pain doctor soon. It’s just frustrating living with constant chronic back pain. It’s tough but I am trying to focus on school and the good things in my life❤️
So overall I am doing better. My pain is not better but my mood is so I am going to focus on the good❤️💜💖
I am making it one day at a time💛 good things are coming and I am going to enjoy my life despite my pain!❤️💖💜
Thank you so much for reading!❤️
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Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t posted in the past few weeks. Things have been crazy. So I am back and here is an update on me:
The events of this week:
I have been seeing a pain doctor who did my nerve blocks. The nerve blocks didn’t work. But this week I waited for 3 HOURS in his waiting room to hear him tell me this: “there is nothing more I can do for you. Fibromyalgia is hard to treat, lose weight, and follow up with your primary care doctor.” So he is not my doctor anymore. So of course that made me upset and cry. Just another doctor not wanting to help me. Then I called another doctor because he told me in his office that there are fibromyalgia doctors. So I called his office and asked if he can send me to the fibromyalgia doctors. His nurse told me: “there are no fibromyalgia doctors just rheumatologist.” I told her: “I have seen 10 rheumatologist! He told me there are fibromyalgia doctor.” She said: “no there isn’t.”
So now I have no doctor and all that happened in one week😓😢
Honestly I have been up and down. The events of this week have really made me feel down. But mostly I am okay. I don’t think I am depressed I just feel down and sad because have no doctor and being in so much pain from fibromyalgia. But mostly I am good and okay❤️💜💜
It’s been really tough. I have been in a lot of pain this week. It’s been horrible. I have to wear my tens unit because it helps my pain but my tens unit is giving me a rash😰😭 so I am just in a lot of pain. It’s really hard. It makes me really sad and down.
Good things about this week:
My school work is going really well. I am really enjoying it. One of my best friends came over yesterday and we had an amazing time. I am trying a new medicine and so far I do see some positive results.
So even though it’s been a crazy stressed and disappointing week. I am going to focus on how today I am feeling better. I am just going to enjoy every day and focus on good things. I am trying to be more positive. Even though fibromyalgia sucks I can still be happy and enjoy my life. So I am going to focus on the good and enjoy❤️💜💖
Thank you so much for reading! Thank you for understanding me not posting in a while. I hope you have an amazing week and I will be posting again next Sunday ❤️
Hey everyone! Happy Sunday and welcome back! Here is an update on me:
I have honestly been up and down. Since I know that my nerve block medicine makes me feel depressed and suicidal, I have been feeling depressed and suicidal. I have been having crazy mood swings. It’s hasn’t been great. But I know that it’s just due to the steroid medicine in the nerve block because people with bipolar (like me) can’t take steroids because it makes them depressed or manic. Steroids make me depressed and suicidal so honestly it’s been horrible. I know that this will pass once the medicine is out of my system but it’s been really rough. So yeah.
Horrible. Just horrible. I have honestly been in so much pain it’s unbearable. The nerve blocks didn’t help so honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I see my pain doctor in a few weeks and I don’t know where to go from here. My pain just keeps getting worse and worse. Nothing is working or helping. I have been seeing a chiropractor for two months and that has not helped. I am going to start doing massages to see if that will help. Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought the nerve blocks would work but they didn’t. I am running out of ideas. I am scared I am always going to be in pain. My fear is becoming my reality.
I am sorry if this post is really depressing and sad. I feel really depressed and sad and this is just my thoughts.
The good thing is I LOVE going to school of ministry! So that makes me happy! 🙂
Thank you so much for reading! I love you all! 🙂
-xoxo Caty 🙂
Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! Here’s an update on me:
Amazing news: I got accepted into a school of ministry!!😊😊❤️😍 so instead of going to college I will be following my dreams and go to a school of ministry so I can get a degree and work in the church❤️💜💖 I am very excited!🧡🧡
Good news: my nerve helped! After my nerve block it worked for a few hours. Then the next few days I noticed I hurt less. So I have another on Thursday, and my doctor said as I do more I will see more positive affects❤️💜💖
I have been doing great!❤️ I have been really happy💖 I have decided that no matter what kind of pain I am in, I am going to live a happy and wonderful life! I have decided to choose to accept my illness but still love my life☀️
My nerve block helps some but I am still in a lot of pain. It’s been rough. The weather has been bad so my pain is worse. But my tens unit has been helping which is really good. But it’s tough but I am making it❤️💖
I am on a new adventure to enjoy life despite fibromyalgia! I am so excited to go to the school of ministry in a few weeks. I am happy❤️💖💜☀️💝
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Thank you so much for reading! I love you all!❤️
Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! I hope you have had an amazing week. Here is an update on me:
Big news: tomorrow I have my first nerve block. I am excited, scared, nervous, but mostly just hoping it works💖
Even though my physical pain has been unbearable but mood has been really good. I don’t feel depressed which is amazing and really helps. It’s nice to say I feel good mentally🧡
Awful. Horrible. Unbearable. I have been without my tens unit because my last one broke (UGH) so I have been in more pain than normal. I get my new tens unit Monday (YAY!). So I haven’t been doing much because my pain has been so bad. So yeah it’s been awful.
I also have some good news, I have applied to go into a school of ministry. Hopefully I will find out tomorrow if I am being accepted or not. So I may not be going to college this spring but instead following my dream and going into a school of ministry. So fingers crossed I get in!❤️💜💖🧡
Thank you so much for reading! Please keep me in your prayers and/or thought for tomorrow for my nerve block.
I love you all! See you again next week💖
Hey everyone! I hope you all had an amazing Christmas❤️💚 I am so sorry I kinda disappeared for a while. I have been out of town for a week so I have been crazy busy.
I have some exciting news: on the Monday before Christmas I saw a new doctor (the eighth one I have seen) he is actually going to treat me! Yay!☀️ after New Years, I am starting nerve blocks. I am really excited, nervous, anxious, and hopeful. It feels really good to finally have a doctor willing to work with me💖
I am much better mentally. Even though the stress of traveling, I haven’t felt depressed. My mood has been really great❤️
Horrible. Just horrible. Fibromyalgia and traveling in a car for seven straight hours don’t mix well. I am hurting sooo bad. My back is killing me and my tens unit broke. Of course! So now I get a new tens unit soon thankfully. But man, I just hurt so bad.
Thank you so much for reading! I am really excited about this new year. This new year I am focusing on hope, joy, and gratitude! I am going to make it a wonderful year despite my pain❤️💖💚💜
Have an amazing day! I love you all!❤️
Hey everyone! Welcome back! I am finally on Christmas break! Yay!
I have some good news: Since this summer I applied to go into a school of ministry. I didn’t hear anything back from them so I went to college in the fall. Well the school of ministry emailed me last week and I have an interview tomorrow to see if I get accepted to go into a school of ministry!❤️💜💜💖💙 I am very excited and really hope I get in!❤️❤️
Here’s an update on me:
Honestly, I am not doing good at all. During the day I feel okay mentally but as the day goes on I get to feeling more and more sad. I don’t know why I am sad I just feel so sad. I mean it’s Christmas time, I am out of school, and I should feel happy but, I don’t. It’s been happening a lot, pretty much everyday. I might be getting depressed again. Which is really frustrating because life is hard enough not depressed. But I truly think I am chemically depressed. I just feel so sad, numb, empty, and I just want to cry. So yeah, I think I am depressed.
My pain has been horrible. I have been seeing my chiropractor three times a week and sometimes it helps going and sometimes it doesn’t. I am having to wear my tens unit all the time. I see new pain doctor next week which will hopefully help. But yeah, it’s horrible.
I am really not okay.
I feel horrible.
But I will keep going.
I am sorry if this is depressing but this is truly how I feel.
Thank you for reading! I love you all❤️