Tag: chronic illness blog

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t posted in the past few weeks. Things have been crazy. So I am back and here is an update on me:

The events of this week:

I have been seeing a pain doctor who did my nerve blocks. The nerve blocks didn’t work. But this week I waited for 3 HOURS in his waiting room to hear him tell me this: “there is nothing more I can do for you. Fibromyalgia is hard to treat, lose weight, and follow up with your primary care doctor.” So he is not my doctor anymore. So of course that made me upset and cry. Just another doctor not wanting to help me. Then I called another doctor because he told me in his office that there are fibromyalgia doctors. So I called his office and asked if he can send me to the fibromyalgia doctors. His nurse told me: “there are no fibromyalgia doctors just rheumatologist.” I told her: “I have seen 10 rheumatologist! He told me there are fibromyalgia doctor.” She said: “no there isn’t.”

So now I have no doctor and all that happened in one week😓😢

Mentally:

Honestly I have been up and down. The events of this week have really made me feel down. But mostly I am okay. I don’t think I am depressed I just feel down and sad because have no doctor and being in so much pain from fibromyalgia. But mostly I am good and okay❤️💜💜

Physically:

It’s been really tough. I have been in a lot of pain this week. It’s been horrible. I have to wear my tens unit because it helps my pain but my tens unit is giving me a rash😰😭 so I am just in a lot of pain. It’s really hard. It makes me really sad and down.

Good things about this week:

My school work is going really well. I am really enjoying it. One of my best friends came over yesterday and we had an amazing time. I am trying a new medicine and so far I do see some positive results.

So even though it’s been a crazy stressed and disappointing week. I am going to focus on how today I am feeling better. I am just going to enjoy every day and focus on good things. I am trying to be more positive. Even though fibromyalgia sucks I can still be happy and enjoy my life. So I am going to focus on the good and enjoy❤️💜💖

Thank you so much for reading! Thank you for understanding me not posting in a while. I hope you have an amazing week and I will be posting again next Sunday ❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday and welcome back! Here is an update on me:

Mentally:

I have honestly been up and down. Since I know that my nerve block medicine makes me feel depressed and suicidal, I have been feeling depressed and suicidal. I have been having crazy mood swings. It’s hasn’t been great. But I know that it’s just due to the steroid medicine in the nerve block because people with bipolar (like me) can’t take steroids because it makes them depressed or manic. Steroids make me depressed and suicidal so honestly it’s been horrible. I know that this will pass once the medicine is out of my system but it’s been really rough. So yeah.

Physically:

Horrible. Just horrible. I have honestly been in so much pain it’s unbearable. The nerve blocks didn’t help so honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I see my pain doctor in a few weeks and I don’t know where to go from here. My pain just keeps getting worse and worse. Nothing is working or helping. I have been seeing a chiropractor for two months and that has not helped. I am going to start doing massages to see if that will help. Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought the nerve blocks would work but they didn’t. I am running out of ideas. I am scared I am always going to be in pain. My fear is becoming my reality.

I am sorry if this post is really depressing and sad. I feel really depressed and sad and this is just my thoughts.

The good thing is I LOVE going to school of ministry! So that makes me happy! 🙂

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all! 🙂

-xoxo Caty 🙂