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I’m depressed again

Hey everyone! Welcome back! I am finally on Christmas break! Yay!

I have some good news: Since this summer I applied to go into a school of ministry. I didn’t hear anything back from them so I went to college in the fall. Well the school of ministry emailed me last week and I have an interview tomorrow to see if I get accepted to go into a school of ministry!❤️💜💜💖💙 I am very excited and really hope I get in!❤️❤️

Here’s an update on me:


Honestly, I am not doing good at all. During the day I feel okay mentally but as the day goes on I get to feeling more and more sad. I don’t know why I am sad I just feel so sad. I mean it’s Christmas time, I am out of school, and I should feel happy but, I don’t. It’s been happening a lot, pretty much everyday. I might be getting depressed again. Which is really frustrating because life is hard enough not depressed. But I truly think I am chemically depressed. I just feel so sad, numb, empty, and I just want to cry. So yeah, I think I am depressed.


My pain has been horrible. I have been seeing my chiropractor three times a week and sometimes it helps going and sometimes it doesn’t. I am having to wear my tens unit all the time. I see new pain doctor next week which will hopefully help. But yeah, it’s horrible.

I am really not okay.

I feel horrible.

But I will keep going.

I am sorry if this is depressing but this is truly how I feel.

Thank you for reading! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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It’s been rough

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here is an update on me:


I have been up and down. This week I have been super stressed because finals in next week. Most of the day I have been really down and Thursday I had a breakdown. But I saw my therapist and felt better. I just most feel stressed because of finals and down because of my physical pain being so bad. I am hanging in there. It’s been rough.


I have been in a lot of physical pain due to fibromyalgia. I am tiring to get in to see a pain doctor since my last doctor didn’t work out. So far the pain doctor hasn’t called me back. I have just been hurting all day every day. It’s been rough tough and I have been so tired due to how much pain I am in. I have been having to take naps due to being so sleepy. I found this cream that has been helping but only helps for an hour. I have been going to see my chiropractor three days a week and that helps for a few hours. I have been wearing my tens unit a lot.

It’s been really rough but I have been making it. I am mostly just ready for finals to be over with and for Christmas break! So next week I will be on Christmas break!❤️ yay!❤️

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you have an amazing day! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Trying to hold on

Hey everyone!❤️ welcome back! Before I update you on me, I want to share some positive things that are happening:

I finally found a good Chircopractor who is really helping me. I have had a wonderful thanksgiving. My college semester is almost over and I have A’s and B’s. So yay!❤️

Here’s the update on me:


I have been feeling really depressed. I know I feel depressed because I am in so much physical pain due to fibromyalgia. But it’s still really hard. Last night I cried and cried because I was so sad and in so much pain. But thankfully my family was there to listen and love me. I feel really depressed just because of my pain but pain is pain. It’s been really rough.


My physical pain is unbearable. I felt sick to my stomach last night because I was hurting so bad. I am in constant chronic pain. It’s never ending and it’s unbearable. It’s been really rough and hard.

I have been facing a lot but I will keep going. People keep telling me to be positive and happy but I don’t know how because I am in so much pain. I know there are good things in my life but all I feel is pain.

But I will hold on. I will keep going❤️

I am sorry if this update was depressing but it’s just how I have been truly feeling.

Thank you for listening! I love you all!❤️💖💙💜🧡 I will see you again next week!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜🧡💙

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Not doing good at all

Hey everyone❤️ welcome back! Here’s an update from me:


Honestly I am very depressed. I know I am probably depressed due to being in so much unbearable pain from fibromyalgia. But depression is depression and it’s sucks. I still keep going: go to school, do my homework, shower, do chores, use my coping a skills, but I still feel depressed. I’m not okay. I’m not alright. But I am making it. I am not giving up (even though I think about giving up a lot). I just keep going❤️


My pain from fibromyalgia is unbearable. I am in constant chronic pain every minute of every day. I hurt so bad and it’s makes me so depressed. I feel sad, depressed, and I cry a lot. I am going to see a pain management clinic soon so hopefully that will help. I am seeing a new Chircopractor on Monday. So hopefully, something will help. Ugh. I just feel horrible. But I am making it. I am just taking it one day at a time💜

I do have some good news: my some of my poems are going to be published in a book by a poetry publishing company! Yay!❤️

So I am really not okay.

I’m really not alright.

But I am making it.

I am hanging in there.

Just taking each day, one minute at a time💖


Thank you so much for reading! I love you all. See you next week!❤️💜💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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I’m not okay

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:


I am really struggling. I am feeling down and depressed a lot. Probably because I am working hard in therapy on overcoming the abuse I went through. It’s been really hard. Now in therapy I am talking about the lies I have believe about myself. Honestly I am not doing good mentally. I still going to school everyday and doing my homework. But I still feel very down and depressed a lot. I know I probably feel depressed because my physical pain from fibromyalgia has been really bad. So I am not okay.


I am in a lot of pain everyday. I finally got my new tens unit which has been helping. My doctor increased my pain medicine that has helped but I am still in a lot of pain. I still believe that I have fibromyalgia because five doctors have told me I do. No matter what illness I have I am still in constant chronic pain everyday.

I am really not okay. I know it’s okay not to be okay❤️

I am sorry if this upload was depressing but honestly it how I feel❤️

Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers❤️

I love you all and will update again next week❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Amazing news❤️💜💖

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well! I have some very good news to share with all of you:

I saw my doctor for my fibromyalgia last week and he increased my pain medicine. But my doctor believes I don’t have fibromyalgia. He believe my chronic pain is due to my sleep apnea. He told me of a mouth guard I can get that will help. He believes that with my mouth guard and using my sleep apnea machine, I can get better! He said it will take a few months but I can get better and maybe even be pain free!!!😊😊💛💛❤️❤️

I am very excited about that news! I can get better!😊❤️💜💖

Here’s an update on me:


I have been doing okay. In therapy I am working hard on overcoming the abuse I went through. So I have been struggling with overcoming my past. But for the most part, I am really good. My mood has gotten a lot better😊❤️💜💖 I feel happy!❤️💛💖💜


I am still in a lot of pain. My tens unit broke and I use it a lot. So that’s been hard because my pain is better with my tens unit. I get a new tens unit on Tuesday so that is good. I have been resting on the heating pad a lot because I have been in a lot of pain. But I am making it. I am hanging in there❤️

Overall I am doing very well and very excited about what the future holds! I am doing really good in college and have made some friends. In the fall I might be doing an internship with my favorite teacher. It’s an internship for English majors (I am an English major). So hopefully I will get the internship!❤️💛💜💖

I am doing really good❤️😊💜💖


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Thank you so much for reading! I love you all! I will see you all again next week!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️❤️

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Focusing on good❤️

Hey everyone! I hope you are doing well. Here’s an update on me:


This week was tough because in therapy I have been finally talking about the abuse I went through. So this week has been really hard I haven’t been coping very well. I have been really sad and down. But this weekend has been amazing!❤️ I told myself that I am tired of focusing on my pain and problems so this weekend has been amazing because I have been focusing on all my blessings💛 it has really worked I am doing really good🧡


This week has been really rough on my fibromyalgia. I have been in a lot of pain this week. But yesterday was a much better day and I really enjoyed. I got a lot of laundry done so that was really good. My pain is better today❤️💜💖💛💙

Focusing on the good things in my life has really been so helpful. I realized how happy I am if I focus on the good and not my problems and pain❤️💜💖🧡💛

I am doing great and I am going to enjoy it❤️


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Thank you so much for reading! I will see you guys again next week! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️