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It’s been a crazy week😅

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t posted in the past few weeks. Things have been crazy. So I am back and here is an update on me:

The events of this week:

I have been seeing a pain doctor who did my nerve blocks. The nerve blocks didn’t work. But this week I waited for 3 HOURS in his waiting room to hear him tell me this: “there is nothing more I can do for you. Fibromyalgia is hard to treat, lose weight, and follow up with your primary care doctor.” So he is not my doctor anymore. So of course that made me upset and cry. Just another doctor not wanting to help me. Then I called another doctor because he told me in his office that there are fibromyalgia doctors. So I called his office and asked if he can send me to the fibromyalgia doctors. His nurse told me: “there are no fibromyalgia doctors just rheumatologist.” I told her: “I have seen 10 rheumatologist! He told me there are fibromyalgia doctor.” She said: “no there isn’t.”

So now I have no doctor and all that happened in one week😓😢


Honestly I have been up and down. The events of this week have really made me feel down. But mostly I am okay. I don’t think I am depressed I just feel down and sad because have no doctor and being in so much pain from fibromyalgia. But mostly I am good and okay❤️💜💜


It’s been really tough. I have been in a lot of pain this week. It’s been horrible. I have to wear my tens unit because it helps my pain but my tens unit is giving me a rash😰😭 so I am just in a lot of pain. It’s really hard. It makes me really sad and down.

Good things about this week:

My school work is going really well. I am really enjoying it. One of my best friends came over yesterday and we had an amazing time. I am trying a new medicine and so far I do see some positive results.

So even though it’s been a crazy stressed and disappointing week. I am going to focus on how today I am feeling better. I am just going to enjoy every day and focus on good things. I am trying to be more positive. Even though fibromyalgia sucks I can still be happy and enjoy my life. So I am going to focus on the good and enjoy❤️💜💖

Thank you so much for reading! Thank you for understanding me not posting in a while. I hope you have an amazing week and I will be posting again next Sunday ❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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I don’t know what to do anymore

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday and welcome back! Here is an update on me:


I have honestly been up and down. Since I know that my nerve block medicine makes me feel depressed and suicidal, I have been feeling depressed and suicidal. I have been having crazy mood swings. It’s hasn’t been great. But I know that it’s just due to the steroid medicine in the nerve block because people with bipolar (like me) can’t take steroids because it makes them depressed or manic. Steroids make me depressed and suicidal so honestly it’s been horrible. I know that this will pass once the medicine is out of my system but it’s been really rough. So yeah.


Horrible. Just horrible. I have honestly been in so much pain it’s unbearable. The nerve blocks didn’t help so honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I see my pain doctor in a few weeks and I don’t know where to go from here. My pain just keeps getting worse and worse. Nothing is working or helping. I have been seeing a chiropractor for two months and that has not helped. I am going to start doing massages to see if that will help. Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought the nerve blocks would work but they didn’t. I am running out of ideas. I am scared I am always going to be in pain. My fear is becoming my reality.

I am sorry if this post is really depressing and sad. I feel really depressed and sad and this is just my thoughts.

The good thing is I LOVE going to school of ministry! So that makes me happy! 🙂

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all! 🙂

-xoxo Caty 🙂

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Exciting new adventure!❤️💜💖

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! Here’s an update on me:

Amazing news: I got accepted into a school of ministry!!😊😊❤️😍 so instead of going to college I will be following my dreams and go to a school of ministry so I can get a degree and work in the church❤️💜💖 I am very excited!🧡🧡

Good news: my nerve helped! After my nerve block it worked for a few hours. Then the next few days I noticed I hurt less. So I have another on Thursday, and my doctor said as I do more I will see more positive affects❤️💜💖


I have been doing great!❤️ I have been really happy💖 I have decided that no matter what kind of pain I am in, I am going to live a happy and wonderful life! I have decided to choose to accept my illness but still love my life☀️


My nerve block helps some but I am still in a lot of pain. It’s been rough. The weather has been bad so my pain is worse. But my tens unit has been helping which is really good. But it’s tough but I am making it❤️💖

I am on a new adventure to enjoy life despite fibromyalgia! I am so excited to go to the school of ministry in a few weeks. I am happy❤️💖💜☀️💝

Remember to check our my podcast called Jesus Saves Ministry which is where I share about all things Jesus. I talk about how to have peace, hope, joy, love, forgive, healing, guidance, and so much more!❤️

Podcast links:

Jesus Saves Ministry On Apple Podcast:


Jesus Saves Ministry On Spotify:


Jesus Saves Ministry On Google Podcast:


Remember I also have a published book called: “Jesus Saves-Daily Devotions” which is also about Jesus and my personal story❤️ it’s on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.

Here are the links:



Thank you so much for reading! I love you all!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜☀️🧡

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Hoping this nerve block works❤️

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday! I hope you have had an amazing week. Here is an update on me:

Big news: tomorrow I have my first nerve block. I am excited, scared, nervous, but mostly just hoping it works💖


Even though my physical pain has been unbearable but mood has been really good. I don’t feel depressed which is amazing and really helps. It’s nice to say I feel good mentally🧡


Awful. Horrible. Unbearable. I have been without my tens unit because my last one broke (UGH) so I have been in more pain than normal. I get my new tens unit Monday (YAY!). So I haven’t been doing much because my pain has been so bad. So yeah it’s been awful.

I also have some good news, I have applied to go into a school of ministry. Hopefully I will find out tomorrow if I am being accepted or not. So I may not be going to college this spring but instead following my dream and going into a school of ministry. So fingers crossed I get in!❤️💜💖🧡

Thank you so much for reading! Please keep me in your prayers and/or thought for tomorrow for my nerve block.

I love you all! See you again next week💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜🧡

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I have hope!☀️

Hey everyone! I hope you all had an amazing Christmas❤️💚 I am so sorry I kinda disappeared for a while. I have been out of town for a week so I have been crazy busy.

I have some exciting news: on the Monday before Christmas I saw a new doctor (the eighth one I have seen) he is actually going to treat me! Yay!☀️ after New Years, I am starting nerve blocks. I am really excited, nervous, anxious, and hopeful. It feels really good to finally have a doctor willing to work with me💖


I am much better mentally. Even though the stress of traveling, I haven’t felt depressed. My mood has been really great❤️


Horrible. Just horrible. Fibromyalgia and traveling in a car for seven straight hours don’t mix well. I am hurting sooo bad. My back is killing me and my tens unit broke. Of course! So now I get a new tens unit soon thankfully. But man, I just hurt so bad.

Thank you so much for reading! I am really excited about this new year. This new year I am focusing on hope, joy, and gratitude! I am going to make it a wonderful year despite my pain❤️💖💚💜

Have an amazing day! I love you all!❤️

-xoxo Caty☀️💞💖

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I’m depressed again

Hey everyone! Welcome back! I am finally on Christmas break! Yay!

I have some good news: Since this summer I applied to go into a school of ministry. I didn’t hear anything back from them so I went to college in the fall. Well the school of ministry emailed me last week and I have an interview tomorrow to see if I get accepted to go into a school of ministry!❤️💜💜💖💙 I am very excited and really hope I get in!❤️❤️

Here’s an update on me:


Honestly, I am not doing good at all. During the day I feel okay mentally but as the day goes on I get to feeling more and more sad. I don’t know why I am sad I just feel so sad. I mean it’s Christmas time, I am out of school, and I should feel happy but, I don’t. It’s been happening a lot, pretty much everyday. I might be getting depressed again. Which is really frustrating because life is hard enough not depressed. But I truly think I am chemically depressed. I just feel so sad, numb, empty, and I just want to cry. So yeah, I think I am depressed.


My pain has been horrible. I have been seeing my chiropractor three times a week and sometimes it helps going and sometimes it doesn’t. I am having to wear my tens unit all the time. I see new pain doctor next week which will hopefully help. But yeah, it’s horrible.

I am really not okay.

I feel horrible.

But I will keep going.

I am sorry if this is depressing but this is truly how I feel.

Thank you for reading! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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It’s been rough

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here is an update on me:


I have been up and down. This week I have been super stressed because finals in next week. Most of the day I have been really down and Thursday I had a breakdown. But I saw my therapist and felt better. I just most feel stressed because of finals and down because of my physical pain being so bad. I am hanging in there. It’s been rough.


I have been in a lot of physical pain due to fibromyalgia. I am tiring to get in to see a pain doctor since my last doctor didn’t work out. So far the pain doctor hasn’t called me back. I have just been hurting all day every day. It’s been rough tough and I have been so tired due to how much pain I am in. I have been having to take naps due to being so sleepy. I found this cream that has been helping but only helps for an hour. I have been going to see my chiropractor three days a week and that helps for a few hours. I have been wearing my tens unit a lot.

It’s been really rough but I have been making it. I am mostly just ready for finals to be over with and for Christmas break! So next week I will be on Christmas break!❤️ yay!❤️

Thank you so much for reading! I hope you have an amazing day! I love you all❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️

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Trying to hold on

Hey everyone!❤️ welcome back! Before I update you on me, I want to share some positive things that are happening:

I finally found a good Chircopractor who is really helping me. I have had a wonderful thanksgiving. My college semester is almost over and I have A’s and B’s. So yay!❤️

Here’s the update on me:


I have been feeling really depressed. I know I feel depressed because I am in so much physical pain due to fibromyalgia. But it’s still really hard. Last night I cried and cried because I was so sad and in so much pain. But thankfully my family was there to listen and love me. I feel really depressed just because of my pain but pain is pain. It’s been really rough.


My physical pain is unbearable. I felt sick to my stomach last night because I was hurting so bad. I am in constant chronic pain. It’s never ending and it’s unbearable. It’s been really rough and hard.

I have been facing a lot but I will keep going. People keep telling me to be positive and happy but I don’t know how because I am in so much pain. I know there are good things in my life but all I feel is pain.

But I will hold on. I will keep going❤️

I am sorry if this update was depressing but it’s just how I have been truly feeling.

Thank you for listening! I love you all!❤️💖💙💜🧡 I will see you again next week!❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜🧡💙

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Not doing good at all

Hey everyone❤️ welcome back! Here’s an update from me:


Honestly I am very depressed. I know I am probably depressed due to being in so much unbearable pain from fibromyalgia. But depression is depression and it’s sucks. I still keep going: go to school, do my homework, shower, do chores, use my coping a skills, but I still feel depressed. I’m not okay. I’m not alright. But I am making it. I am not giving up (even though I think about giving up a lot). I just keep going❤️


My pain from fibromyalgia is unbearable. I am in constant chronic pain every minute of every day. I hurt so bad and it’s makes me so depressed. I feel sad, depressed, and I cry a lot. I am going to see a pain management clinic soon so hopefully that will help. I am seeing a new Chircopractor on Monday. So hopefully, something will help. Ugh. I just feel horrible. But I am making it. I am just taking it one day at a time💜

I do have some good news: my some of my poems are going to be published in a book by a poetry publishing company! Yay!❤️

So I am really not okay.

I’m really not alright.

But I am making it.

I am hanging in there.

Just taking each day, one minute at a time💖


Thank you so much for reading! I love you all. See you next week!❤️💜💖

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

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I’m not okay

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:


I am really struggling. I am feeling down and depressed a lot. Probably because I am working hard in therapy on overcoming the abuse I went through. It’s been really hard. Now in therapy I am talking about the lies I have believe about myself. Honestly I am not doing good mentally. I still going to school everyday and doing my homework. But I still feel very down and depressed a lot. I know I probably feel depressed because my physical pain from fibromyalgia has been really bad. So I am not okay.


I am in a lot of pain everyday. I finally got my new tens unit which has been helping. My doctor increased my pain medicine that has helped but I am still in a lot of pain. I still believe that I have fibromyalgia because five doctors have told me I do. No matter what illness I have I am still in constant chronic pain everyday.

I am really not okay. I know it’s okay not to be okay❤️

I am sorry if this upload was depressing but honestly it how I feel❤️

Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers❤️

I love you all and will update again next week❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️