Daily life

I will be okay, just not today

Hey everyone! Welcome back! Here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I have been feeling really down and depressed. I know I am feeling depressed because of my horrible fibromyalgia pain. I know I need to accept my fibromyalgia but I don’t know how. I still feel upset at God that I even have fibromyalgia. I just feel very sad and down all the time. It doesn’t help that I can’t go anywhere due to covid-19. Everything is closed where I live and I miss going places.

Physically:

My pain is horrible. I am in constant unbearable pain from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep. I hurt so bad with no pain relief. It’s exhausting, frustrating, and makes me feel depressed.

Honestly I am not doing so good but I am making it. I am taking it one day at a time. I know I will be okay just not today❤️💖💜

I am sorry if it seems like I am complaining, I am really not I am just being honest with how I feel. Thank you for listening❤️💖💜

Remember to check out my podcast called Chronically Caty where I talk about all things about mental health and chronic illness. I update every week! The links are below⬇️❤️💛

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/4aJlFcCxLNxQuXpnQD9gcQ

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

I love you all! Talk to you again next week❤️💖💜

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

Daily life

I am going to enjoy my life despite my pain💛

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t updated in the past few weeks been very busy with school. So here’s an update on me:

Mentally:

I am up and down. But for the most part my mood is really good❤️ I don’t feel depressed and I feel happy!❤️💖💜 with school though I have been feeling stressed and overwhelmed. But for the most part my mood is good💛

Physically:

I have been in a lot of pain. It’s been rough. I am having to wear my tens unit all day along because my pain is so bad. I am hoping to see another pain doctor soon. It’s just frustrating living with constant chronic back pain. It’s tough but I am trying to focus on school and the good things in my life❤️

So overall I am doing better. My pain is not better but my mood is so I am going to focus on the good❤️💜💖

I am making it one day at a time💛 good things are coming and I am going to enjoy my life despite my pain!❤️💖💜

Thank you so much for reading!❤️

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Remember I host a podcast called Chronically Caty where I share my tips and tricks on how to live an amazing life with mental and/or chronic illnesses.

The links are below⬇️

Chronically Caty on Apple Podcast:

https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/chronically-caty/id1459565351?uo=4

Chronically Caty Spotify:

https://open.spotify.com/show/4aJlFcCxLNxQuXpnQD9gcQ

Chronically Caty on Google Podcast:

https://www.google.com/podcasts?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vcy9hNjcyN2Y4L3BvZGNhc3QvcnNz

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all and I will see you next week❤️💖💜💛

-xoxo Caty❤️💖💜

Daily life

It’s been a crazy week😅

Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t posted in the past few weeks. Things have been crazy. So I am back and here is an update on me:

The events of this week:

I have been seeing a pain doctor who did my nerve blocks. The nerve blocks didn’t work. But this week I waited for 3 HOURS in his waiting room to hear him tell me this: “there is nothing more I can do for you. Fibromyalgia is hard to treat, lose weight, and follow up with your primary care doctor.” So he is not my doctor anymore. So of course that made me upset and cry. Just another doctor not wanting to help me. Then I called another doctor because he told me in his office that there are fibromyalgia doctors. So I called his office and asked if he can send me to the fibromyalgia doctors. His nurse told me: “there are no fibromyalgia doctors just rheumatologist.” I told her: “I have seen 10 rheumatologist! He told me there are fibromyalgia doctor.” She said: “no there isn’t.”

So now I have no doctor and all that happened in one week😓😢

Mentally:

Honestly I have been up and down. The events of this week have really made me feel down. But mostly I am okay. I don’t think I am depressed I just feel down and sad because have no doctor and being in so much pain from fibromyalgia. But mostly I am good and okay❤️💜💜

Physically:

It’s been really tough. I have been in a lot of pain this week. It’s been horrible. I have to wear my tens unit because it helps my pain but my tens unit is giving me a rash😰😭 so I am just in a lot of pain. It’s really hard. It makes me really sad and down.

Good things about this week:

My school work is going really well. I am really enjoying it. One of my best friends came over yesterday and we had an amazing time. I am trying a new medicine and so far I do see some positive results.

So even though it’s been a crazy stressed and disappointing week. I am going to focus on how today I am feeling better. I am just going to enjoy every day and focus on good things. I am trying to be more positive. Even though fibromyalgia sucks I can still be happy and enjoy my life. So I am going to focus on the good and enjoy❤️💜💖

Thank you so much for reading! Thank you for understanding me not posting in a while. I hope you have an amazing week and I will be posting again next Sunday ❤️

-xoxo Caty❤️💜💖

Daily life

I don’t know what to do anymore

Hey everyone! Happy Sunday and welcome back! Here is an update on me:

Mentally:

I have honestly been up and down. Since I know that my nerve block medicine makes me feel depressed and suicidal, I have been feeling depressed and suicidal. I have been having crazy mood swings. It’s hasn’t been great. But I know that it’s just due to the steroid medicine in the nerve block because people with bipolar (like me) can’t take steroids because it makes them depressed or manic. Steroids make me depressed and suicidal so honestly it’s been horrible. I know that this will pass once the medicine is out of my system but it’s been really rough. So yeah.

Physically:

Horrible. Just horrible. I have honestly been in so much pain it’s unbearable. The nerve blocks didn’t help so honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I see my pain doctor in a few weeks and I don’t know where to go from here. My pain just keeps getting worse and worse. Nothing is working or helping. I have been seeing a chiropractor for two months and that has not helped. I am going to start doing massages to see if that will help. Honestly I don’t know what to do anymore. I thought the nerve blocks would work but they didn’t. I am running out of ideas. I am scared I am always going to be in pain. My fear is becoming my reality.

I am sorry if this post is really depressing and sad. I feel really depressed and sad and this is just my thoughts.

The good thing is I LOVE going to school of ministry! So that makes me happy! 🙂

Thank you so much for reading! I love you all! 🙂

-xoxo Caty 🙂