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Roller coaster of emotions

So today was a roller coaster of emotions. Normally my mom doesn’t tell me when she’s have a bad day, she  always acts okay. But today she told my little sister and I that she was having a rough day. I was shocked, I didn’t know what to do, she has never done that before. She said ahs needs extra love today. I know my definition of more love is but I really didn’t know what that meant. I just winged it, I feel like I had to be the okay one. I am just learning to driving and parking is very hard. And one of the places we went to had probably the worst parking I had tired. I was nervous enough so I was doing bad and mom was yelling. Long story short, we fought. Then when we ate lunch I asked them to leave and give me a minute. I had a full on anxiety attack. To say the least I was a mess. Thank goodness I had therapy after that, my therapist really helps me. I talked about my mood swing that are worse than usual, how I feel useless, and my anger at God. The reason I am having worse mood swings than normal is my dr changed some of the dosages on my meds, which takes a while to get used to. I have just been feeling like I have no purpose lately, like in my family. We had a family session which really helped. Sometimes I feel I have no role in my family, but my therapist, my mom, and my sister helped me feel lots better about it. Also mom and I worked through our fight, we are all good now. It was an emotional day, now I feel better much. Probably raw from everything that has happened today. But I am okay☀️ today has gotten better, it’s just been a roller coaster kind of day!💗

I love you lots babe!💜

Talk to you soon!❤️

  Btw I made this edit😂😂I am a HUGE BOOK NERD! So this is me!😂😂😂😂🙌🙌🙌☺️☺️🙌🙌🙌😂😂

Hehe bye love!💗 

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